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Im officially my heaviest weight by a long shot but 5 pounds away from my goal of 240..I started at 200 but lately I've been considering going on a diet and training because im afraid of going too far I can't hide my gain anymore and im conscious of it..how to I keep going?

The question n is, do you fear being called out? Are there people in your everyday life who would care enough to notice?
If not, I would suggest try to stay at your current weight for a while, see if you feel self-conscious after you get used to it. Then proceed in whatever way is right for you.

You’re an adult and not hurting anyone. Do what makes you happy (including losing weight if it makes you more comfortable)

People with this fetish tend to overplay how much people will react to our gains or our SOs weight gain(s)while I understand why, you shouldn’t let it bother you at most they’ll say wow you got fat/wow they got fat but isn’t this a true and factual statement? Didn’t you enjoy the process? I understand if you’ve been bullied for your weight or faced discrimination but the most I’ve faced is like diet recommendations, it really isn’t that big of a deal.

As for you and yourself you gotta do what makes you happy and makes you feel good if being fat makes you happy then I say go all in

Are you self quoting?

“This message is false The end of the words is ALMSIVI” - morbidly a beast

Anytime someone is unsure if they want to keep gaining, I always recommend maintaining until they can make the choice for themselves. Internet strangers can tell you whatever you like, but you're the one that will have to live with your actions.

I agree just felt like I needed to say that make it 100% your choice and don’t be dissuaded by perceived judgments from others but I recognize I did the same thing in the other direction.

My entire point is let you’re self be the decider, Chubster