Extreme obesity

BigBallBellyGirl:
I'm from a thin family with healthy eating habits, but I was always chubby and have been fascinated by fat people since before kindergarten. My mother lived off salad and soup. I wanted pizza, burgers, bread, sweets, and I would get my fill anytime I was with my grandparents or at a school event. Because I was the heaviest girl in school from the time I was in first grade, I never developed the aversion to fat society wants us to have. I became significantly overweight in elementary school, and I didn't consider it a problem even though my parents and teachers did. By fourth grade, I couldn't squeeze into a regular desk and had a special spot at a crafts table. That was fine with me. Despite my mother's best efforts, I first hit 300 lb in high school, and the only time I've ever felt a desire to lose it was under pressure from my doctor a few years ago. When my weight dropped below 200 lb for the first time in years, I felt like a stranger in my own body. I didn't enjoy having less fat to touch, and I certainly didn't enjoy eating less. Now I'm bigger than ever.. definitely clinically morbidly obese... and I really can't imagine having it any other way ever again.