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I hear that, altho just to explore this more, one can say that we aren't sexualy attracted to gender either! Think of it! Why is it that in culture, in videogames for example, the example of sexualization of women is that they always have big breasts? Or big butts? And even in the feederism community too the objectification is present. Isn't sexuality itself an object-oriented... thing?

I agree.

I am content with being fat and not gaining more weight even if I want to at the time so it’s not that big of a deal for me. I could see if someone who was skinny would be struggling, but anyone who’s seen me or my diet knows that hasn’t been me for the better part of a decade.

I will say that intensity comes and goes like there’s sometimes where I just want nothing more than to gain 100 pounds that very instant and then there’s sometimes where it’s like not even remotely high on my attention.

My “”diet”” and my lifestyle choices make it pretty much inevitable for me but I think for some it’s probably ignorable I’m not sure where my gluttony came from it was like a switch was hit for me

You can have your cake and eat it too (pun intended) freely indulge as you see fit this will not lead to dramatic weight gain overnight but with some consistency it will and in the meantime it will increase your appetite and capacity. I eat “stuffings” because it’s just me following my appetite I don’t purposely say like “I’m gonna stuff myself with X”

And yeah chances are you’re not gonna find someone in this to go along with you. You’re gonna want to do it for yourself

It all comes down to how you approach the fetish.

There‘s two sides for me: being attracted to big women and having fun gaining weight myself.
The preference for curvy girls has always been there for as long as I can remember.
The desire to gain weight myself is a different story. This sort of comes and goes. I realize though that over the last couple of years, the periods when I wanted my gut to grow and actively gained became longer and the periods when I didn’t care or even lost weight became shorter.
Others said that it’s like you flipped a switch. That’s so true. I could go for months not caring for weight gain and even be losing weight and being glad that my clothes still fit and then maybe after a couple of good meals and a slight unintentional gain I suddenly rediscover the fun of gaining. And then I‘ll go again So yes: it may come and go but never leave

I agree I don't think it "goes" I think ot just gets ignored or neglected sometimes

It never goes away lol. I took a break from gaining back in 2016 and then it came creeping back in early 2020 before the pandemic. I got a bad reaction to something at work, and had to use steroid cream which made me gain a bunch of weight and it reminded me that I love the feeling of getting fatter. :V

For months, I was working on my diet, wanting back to a healthier lifestyle, wanted back control, wanted to fit in my old pants, looking conventionally attractive - leave it all behind.

And I achieved that - almost. Just when I thought I had it all under control and smooth sailing ahead, almost at the first milestone I set myself, it hit me like a steamhammer again.

It was in a store and the moment I flipped and just bought tons of stuff I was avoiding so cautiously before and got a tingling sensation all over my body.

I tried to dismiss it as a cheating day, but I‘m not let off that easy. It‘s like I‘m getting off of sabotaging my diet and effort. Like I have an inner Feeder who mocks me. I‘m almost giggling at the future clarity-me fully knowing the feeling of regret and having to deal with the damage done.

The sad part is, I‘m always in the position where I want the opposite and I just thought I had defeated that aspect in my life.

In any case, the last gainer cycle had an abnormaly long duration and I went further like before with HC, nuts and the subcutaneous fat I wanted so badly really gave me trouble when I tried losing it.

I've tried to shake it before. I was 370 pounds, and my doctor nudged me to lose weight. I enjoyed my size and liked the way I looked, but I thought losing would give me more energy and stamina and help me avoid obesity-relayed health issues. So I dug in. I got all the way down to the 190s, I closed all my accounts on the sites, and I avoided anything related to weight gain and fat. It didn't work. I felt like I was stuck in a stranger's body. I missed the feeling of a fat heavy belly. I missed touching a huge gut covering my thighs as I sat. I missed my general heaviness and the way my fat shifted as I walked. To literally try to fill that space, I started inflating, and I chugged diet, calorie-free soda every chance I got. I eventually was consuming at least 6 l of diet soda every single night. It helped, but it didn't satisfy the longing I felt for a bigger body. Eventually, I gave in. A lot of friends thought my partner had something to do with my regain, and he definitely is a feeder, but I was driving force, and he was supportive, just like he was when I recently took a gaining break. 2 and a half years and 240 lb later, I've never loved my body more. I'm at my fattest ever, and I'm back to gaining again. Barring some kind of medical situation that necessitates the change, I don't imagine I'll ever lose another pound.