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Hydrargyrumrabbit:
Not to sound bleak, but feedism reminds me of that show Dexter.. not the whole murdering part, lol, but in it he refers to his urges as his 'dark passenger', & I tend to agree to a point. Without going too far into details, I committed myself to a weight loss journey this year.. had back issues, wanted that sorted, so I sucked it up when I moved and full sent a lifestyle change.

Even then, however, the voice in the back of my mind has never once disappeared or quieted. In fact, as I lost weight, the louder it got about how I disliked these changes. I enjoy being big, the heft, the jiggles. To the point where I daily question just giving in & 'full sending' the other direction, barring keeping my back in check with exercise.

Lol.. at this point, I suppose I'm just trying to find a happy middle ground. Where can I maintain a grasp on what I *want* and what I *need* & I guess that's as much as any of us can do. The unfortunate fact of life is rarely do those two points ever cleanly cross.

Cristinac1:
I want to share my experience if it helps anybody, at least to feel understood like ,you are not alone. I have always been into bigger boys for any reason ,since I was a little girl and I didn't even know anything about sexuality. Obviously when I grew up it becames a sexual thing, is like being gay (?) I don't know how to explain it , I only know that I can't be sexually attracted by anybody who is not overweight. And I don't know why but it's my thing, is a part of who I am. I have tried to date skinny and "normative" boys just to convince myself that there's nothing wrong with me ,but in the end I always get the same conclusion. I used to feel alone and a weirdo even in the feederism community, because I'm a straight skinny woman interested in big boys,and in my experience, this is not as common as other things like female feederism. I have even gone into eating disorders for a few years,and even rejecting fat and food in my own body, It has always been the same.
Nowadays, I accept myself and my sexual preferences,but I would like to have the opportunity to be more open with it. Sorry for the long text ,I needed to cry somewhere xd

CuteTGirl:
Story time:

I've always been turned on by various forms of transformation for as long as I can remember. As I got older, it sort of evolved to the point where I was really just into gender transformation and weight gain. A few years ago, I realized that my interest in gender transformation wasn't really a fetish, but that I was in fact transgender.

So I started social transition, and then started on hormones. At this point my interest in weight gain sort of went out the window. I just didn't care about it and when I tried to indulge it, it didn't really do anything for me. So that went on for 2/3 years. I was just solely focused on my transition and was happy about it. I figured my tastes had just evolved again with age and that I was past being into feedism. I even tried to lose some weight.

Well.... I don't know what happened but it's like a switch was flipped over the last week. Suddenly I was extremely into weight gain again. It's like it happened overnight. I went to the store yesterday and bought a bunch of junk food and plan on getting back into gaining. It's just so funny that I always end back up here lmao.

Anyway thanks for coming to my TED Talk

CuteTGirl:
Story time:

I've always been turned on by various forms of transformation for as long as I can remember. As I got older, it sort of evolved to the point where I was really just into gender transformation and weight gain. A few years ago, I realized that my interest in gender transformation wasn't really a fetish, but that I was in fact transgender.

So I started social transition, and then started on hormones. At this point my interest in weight gain sort of went out the window. I just didn't care about it and when I tried to indulge it, it didn't really do anything for me. So that went on for 2/3 years. I was just solely focused on my transition and was happy about it. I figured my tastes had just evolved again with age and that I was past being into feedism. I even tried to lose some weight.

Well.... I don't know what happened but it's like a switch was flipped over the last week. Suddenly I was extremely into weight gain again. It's like it happened overnight. I went to the store yesterday and bought a bunch of junk food and plan on getting back into gaining. It's just so funny that I always end back up here lmao.

Anyway thanks for coming to my TED Talk