1. Been fed IRL
yes, several different feeders
2. Ate myself to sleep
yes
3. Had sex while being fed at the same time
yes and masturbated/mutual pleasuring.
4. Stolen food because I�m just a piggy
No, or maybe when drunk...actually yes Ivee done runners from restaurants abroad quite a lot now I think
5. Been called a fat name in public
yes
6. Had a stranger pat or poke my belly
sort of
7. Been fatter than my current weight
yes, a lot. I go through phases, used to see it as winter coating. Then it wasn't, and over the years just got more addicted. I have just lost a lot of weight since my last one, because it was loveless and I put on so much hoping it would be enough for her..then realised what a fool I was for her. Its been so hard to pull away though, like if I see a pic of her or something I lose control. Sounds sad, but also hot to be so addicted and controlled, and she knew it too. While it was a game for her, for me I had hopes, so it was painful and basically needed therapy. I still think a loving feeding connection that was long term could happen but i am getting on too, so health risks could arise, and atm I get a lot of attention being slimmer..so it's a thing I struggle with reallly..in and out. Tried to change it, transcend it, tantra it, meditate it away, coped through alcohol at times. Other times I had vanilla relationships and something was just missing..I didnt' feel the same electricity at all.
So I accept it, but you have to remember it was coming alive in me when there were no sites like this, no way of knowing others had the same thing or wanted it, no young attractive feeders to find, as there was no internet, no mobiles, no social media. Hard to imagine now I know, and I loved those days too, the raving and partying without beiing filmed, no worries of anything emarassing online. Bullying was something face to face, and i was a kickboxer and rugby player with an 8 pack, so yes got through that just fine.
8. Ripped clothes or popped a button
yes, often, I arrived for a feeder date at a hotel and the button came off that day, just thought she'd be ok with it. Crap i hope I am not outing anyone.
9. Broken furniture because of my weight
yes
10. Seen an actual pig and got turned on
no
11. Fantasized about immobility
Yes, some of my favourite stories have some of that, and more. Total surrender is hot
12. Ate until I threw up
nearly...she just about stopped. actually i did at home once after online session
13. Got stuck somewhere because of my size
no
14. Posted nudes of myself online
yes
15. Been fed online
yes, since I was about 26 - had a yahoo group back in the day for it. cant even remember how people found it, maybe dimensions or whatever site like another yahoo page i dont know. Its cool, because all over the world!
16. Been told I need to lose weight by a family member
oh yes
17. Had a partner who worshiped my fat
yes...was so good, like relief after rejection becausue of it. made me need/want her all the more
18. Started rubbing my belly in public
she did - in a jacuzzi, and then a bit less subtly over dinner. Tbh, if you are with a feeder, you are just in their power and control, and just go with things even if they can make you blush or get a bit uncomfortable. Its like that for me anyway
19. Been called a pig
yes, not so much my thing but dont get offended or annoyed
20. Been weighed and measured by my partner
No - been asked to send weights and examined a lot though. After a gain that feels good, and if you see it in her eyes fuck
21. Been in a gaining competition with another gainer
No. Or maybe it felt like that with my last one a bit because she wasnt monogamous and I knew that so nor was I..lol anyway enough said!
9 months
