I want to lose weight because I want to be seen as superior to other people in the eyes of society. Honestly I want to get so thin that other people skinny shame me (since it means they are jealous). I want the pity and attention people give skinny people. I also want to get super skinny so that I appear less feminine because looking feminine gives me gender dysphoria and getting skinny is how I can pretend to be a cis girl while curing a lot of my dysphoria. If I get skinny than my thighs will be smaller in comparison to my body since my waist and shoulders can’t get any smaller due to my bones.
I hate that I get off on the idea of being fat. I see changing my body to be the opposite of my kink to be empowering and showing resistance to what I believe is a disturbing kink. I respect how others choose to live and how they view their kinks. I don’t want to come on here and push my beliefs because acting out a fat fetish is an individual choice.
It’s just hard to eat 1200-1500 calories a day when the horny part of your brain is telling you to eat until you are obese. Every slip up I make is made worse because once I slip up I get horny and catch myself at McDonald’s. If it wasn’t for this stupid kink that wants me to look ugly to the majority of the population I would be in a better spot.
Maybe I’ll take up volunteer work as an anti obesity advocate to rebel even more. I’m already becoming a doctor. I can fight it off. Does anyone have tips on fighting off fat fetish urges while losing weight?
I hate that I get off on the idea of being fat. I see changing my body to be the opposite of my kink to be empowering and showing resistance to what I believe is a disturbing kink. I respect how others choose to live and how they view their kinks. I don’t want to come on here and push my beliefs because acting out a fat fetish is an individual choice.
It’s just hard to eat 1200-1500 calories a day when the horny part of your brain is telling you to eat until you are obese. Every slip up I make is made worse because once I slip up I get horny and catch myself at McDonald’s. If it wasn’t for this stupid kink that wants me to look ugly to the majority of the population I would be in a better spot.
Maybe I’ll take up volunteer work as an anti obesity advocate to rebel even more. I’m already becoming a doctor. I can fight it off. Does anyone have tips on fighting off fat fetish urges while losing weight?
10 months