BigBallBellyGirl:
It happened long before I was old enough to put a label on it and before I was aware it could have sexual aspects/undertones. Before kindergarten, I was already chubby, and my parents reacted by strictly controlling my food, snacks, and physical activity. Because they made my body an issue, I became hyper aware of physical features like my protruding belly... but I wasn't self conscious. I was intrigued
By elementary school, I was fat, despite my mother's constant false association of fat bodies with some kind of moral failing. I also enjoyed "forbidden" foods, and by the time I was eight or nine, I found a way to build a stash. I had my first intentional gains one summer, and I put on so much weight I was too big for one piece classroom desks. I hit 200 in middle school and 300 in high school. When I got an after school job at a local diner, I had pocket money for belly stuffing. By college, I discovered other aspects of this kink like inflation and bloating, weight gain fiction, etc. Today, I'm very happily engaged to someone who is into feedism too.
Long story short, I think there have to be some elements of body autonomy involved for me, and it's also about embracing who I am and loving me for me. The smallest I've ever been as an adult was 190, and I didn't feel happy at that size. I'm currently in the 525 to 535 range. If I didn't have health concerns I'm trying to mitigate, and if I could stay mobile, I'd happily go for 600, but that's not in the cards for now. Maybe down the road!
mine is very very similar to BigBallBellyGirl minus a few hundred pound or so :-) it also started waaaaaaay before anything remotely sexual.
I was a chubby child, alone a lot and used to self-soothing with food... everyone thought I was cute and such a healthy eater. I was quite aware of how big my tummy was because adults would often comment on it, but not yet negatively. I remember even then I was fascinated by it, and enjoyed feeling full, and rubbing it, and would stuff cushions up my shirt, and invent games with my friends where we had to show each other our tummies and how big we could make them.
I also always had weird feelings watching lions gorge in documentaries, or the chocolate cake in Matilda. Oh my god I really wanted to be in that kids place. the way he started feeling numb from fullness, too utterly stuffed to GAF when she cracks the empty platter over his head.
Eventually I got put on a diet and realized I should be ashamed of my big belly. Hungry from the tiny diet portions. So I snuck food, and then binged in secret, pushing myself past my limits so that the feeling of fullness would last longer. Let's just say the diet had limited success: My weight ballooned, my folks became obsessed with my gut, and me, with filling it.
I think the sexual stuff started when guys I had a crush on teased or commented on my fat gut.
I put myself on a diet (as opposed to being forced on one) after high school and lost most, although I always kept a bit of a potbelly. And for the longest time, writing WG fic and the occasional binge was all I did.
But even then, I was always much easier turned on by my boyfriend of the time if I'd noticed my belly was looking bigger or bloated or if he touched my tummy, or if I stuck it out and rubbed it against him.
Then covid came and I kinda gave in to stuffing and bloating and trying to stretch my stomach to increase capacity. It started because I wanted to feel numb, deal with my anxiety about the world, and well, overeating was how I knew how to do that.
Now I can barely dissociate food and sex anymore, I need to be full to feel turned on and watching romance on tv makes me want to eat and feel my gut. And i'm properly fat again. Pre-covid I was not slim but not quite chubby, just a bit of a beerbelly. Now I have a hard time keeping the binges at a reasonable frequency.
So tldr, I've always liked feeling round and full, but now it's just the biggest turn on. A huge fat belly, swollen and heavy from gorging.
And now I'm hungry lol
