Bigdoug:
I have always been at least “chunky” and made a few half-hearted attempts to shed a few pounds or work out more in my late teens and early twenties (when I was in the lower to mid 200s). I just always enjoyed eating more than being “slim” and I am pretty lazy, so extra activity has never been that enjoyable for me. In my later twenties and thirties I was busy with life and never really thought about losing weight. Also, slowly getting into the mid300s during that time, weight never really interfered with my life. I would say that my “point of no return” happened around 400 pounds. I am currently in the upper 400s and the amount of eating restrictions and activity increase necessary to make a significant impact on my weight is just way beyond what I would be realistically capable of. Especially given that I have no motivation or desire to lose weight.
I have always been at least “chunky” and made a few half-hearted attempts to shed a few pounds or work out more in my late teens and early twenties (when I was in the lower to mid 200s). I just always enjoyed eating more than being “slim” and I am pretty lazy, so extra activity has never been that enjoyable for me. In my later twenties and thirties I was busy with life and never really thought about losing weight. Also, slowly getting into the mid300s during that time, weight never really interfered with my life. I would say that my “point of no return” happened around 400 pounds. I am currently in the upper 400s and the amount of eating restrictions and activity increase necessary to make a significant impact on my weight is just way beyond what I would be realistically capable of. Especially given that I have no motivation or desire to lose weight.
Your story is much like mine, I was a fat at 7 and knew I wanted to be bigger. But could not be open in a family and society that did not tolerate being fat. It made my youngest year confusing and frustrated. And it has taken another 25 year to be comfortable being me. It’s is a shame but now I will be as fat as I or my body wants to be.
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