I am a 20M in college. I have been wanting to gain ever since I was 14, but I always struggled to do so as I have been scared of the reactions that would come from it and also how I would feel about it. I have tried gaining a few pounds to see how it like it and went from around 130 to 180 during covid. I really enjoyed this weight but since then, I have lost weight and have dropped back down to 165. I really want to be obese and definitely more with my major goal being morbidly obese. But I am still scared, I can't get past the horny urges even when bloating or stuffing myself. But I am still scared about gaining and how friends and family will react, and if it will be harder to find a relationship in college because of gaining weight. I really want a feeder to indulge but still want to be fit when I am not in a super horny mood(maybe a few hours a day) but as soon as I eat, I want to indulge even though I am not the biggest fan of food, or at least what I choose to eat. Does anyone have any advice? anything would help. Feel free to dm any advice as well
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