General

I remember having thoughts and feelings about feeding and gaining when I was a child. Maybe these feelings were sexual, but I didn't recognize them as such and it seems to me now they were different than sexual feelings. All I can say is there was something magical about them. It was also a bit frustrating, because there was nowhere to go with these feelings.

After adolescence it was different--the feelings were definitely sexual.

I don't know if these childhood feelings were anything like being an asexual adult, but somehow they remind me of each other.

I was a very late bloomer and when it happened it was involving weight gain. I never felt any arousal from the usual content and in fact, I felt estranged by my peers for the simple fact I would not feel anything from a "hot" person.

It took me until nearly a couple years ago when I found out that asexuality is perfectly normal and I shouldn't consider myself broken for that. I don't like intimacy, and sexual content is something I would rather stay away.

But that was never the case with feedism. I would always go back to it and seeing other people enjoying their food with gusto would fill me with a sense of calm that this was what I desired all along.

I ended up gaining some myself but rather than hating it, I ended up discovering my self love that I never had my entire life. I enjoy my life now, more than ever.

Similar to this, receiving nudes does absolutely nothing for me, sexually, rather it kinda turns me away. But when someone mentions anything about feeling like a slob, or stuffing their face I just activate.
It's so confusing and sometimes frustrating because I don't want to open up and be like "That's so hot" and then get cast out because of my specific interest.
If that makes any sense haha