My boyfriend (who probably weights less than I do right now) used to be over 200 lbs back when he drank and still has a small doughy belly and cute moobs.
He'll often say "I feel fat..." while grabbing his muffin top shamefully or ask "Am I disgusting?" whenever he's shirtless (unless I ask him to take it off he'll usually keep his top on while we're making love).
I find it heartbreaking that he would think that... I reply: "I love all of your body just the way it is and would have felt the same way if I had met you when you were bigger. My own body isn't perfect, we both have loose skin, that's a consequence of losing a lot of weight."
He knows I'm also into girls and, although he identifies as a cis-het male, he has a strong feminine side to him and isn't ashamed of it. I've told him many times I love how his long curly hair and small breasts make him looks androgynous, even more so when I don't have my glasses on (I have very severe myopia).
How I wish I had met him years ago when he was fat (minus the alcoholism... he says he used to drink so much beer he could gain 30 lbs in a month from all the sugar and extra calories) and how I fantasize about going away for a while and coming back to a much fatter version of him, like in the pictures he showed me.
During lovemaking, I think of these and how it would be like if he regained the weight. How winded and sweaty he would be, how heavy his body would feel on me, his belly fat brushing against my own...
This makes me orgasm so hard!
Knowing how self conscious he feels about these body parts, I try my best to resist the urge to touch his drooping belly or moobs during missionary... but it's hard and sometimes my hands will "slip" and catch a glimpse of exquisite softness...
The rest of the time, I grab his butt (which he obviously enjoys), love handles (if he notices he doesn't seem to mind) or the fat on my own belly or thighs (ugh) to trick my brain into thinking I'm touching HIS fat, but it doesn't work as well.
I wish I could tell him how I really felt, but although he says he doesn't mind my recent weight gain (all his former girlfriends were larger than me) and sincerely thinks I looked just as pretty at my heaviest (he's seen pictures), he's made it pretty clear he disliked being fat and feels much better in a thinner body.
(To be continued at a later date.)
He'll often say "I feel fat..." while grabbing his muffin top shamefully or ask "Am I disgusting?" whenever he's shirtless (unless I ask him to take it off he'll usually keep his top on while we're making love).
I find it heartbreaking that he would think that... I reply: "I love all of your body just the way it is and would have felt the same way if I had met you when you were bigger. My own body isn't perfect, we both have loose skin, that's a consequence of losing a lot of weight."
He knows I'm also into girls and, although he identifies as a cis-het male, he has a strong feminine side to him and isn't ashamed of it. I've told him many times I love how his long curly hair and small breasts make him looks androgynous, even more so when I don't have my glasses on (I have very severe myopia).
How I wish I had met him years ago when he was fat (minus the alcoholism... he says he used to drink so much beer he could gain 30 lbs in a month from all the sugar and extra calories) and how I fantasize about going away for a while and coming back to a much fatter version of him, like in the pictures he showed me.
During lovemaking, I think of these and how it would be like if he regained the weight. How winded and sweaty he would be, how heavy his body would feel on me, his belly fat brushing against my own...
This makes me orgasm so hard!
Knowing how self conscious he feels about these body parts, I try my best to resist the urge to touch his drooping belly or moobs during missionary... but it's hard and sometimes my hands will "slip" and catch a glimpse of exquisite softness...
The rest of the time, I grab his butt (which he obviously enjoys), love handles (if he notices he doesn't seem to mind) or the fat on my own belly or thighs (ugh) to trick my brain into thinking I'm touching HIS fat, but it doesn't work as well.
I wish I could tell him how I really felt, but although he says he doesn't mind my recent weight gain (all his former girlfriends were larger than me) and sincerely thinks I looked just as pretty at my heaviest (he's seen pictures), he's made it pretty clear he disliked being fat and feels much better in a thinner body.
(To be continued at a later date.)
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