James556:
All my life I've had weightgain fantasies and I always thought I'd keep it as a fantasy, and still currently am, but the desire is beginning to get stronger to the point I've even made a few shakes during the last few weeks. But being really lean now I can just forget about it once the moment passes, as normally when the moment passes I no longer desire to gain, and that happens near enough every time, but I'm worried if I do decide to gain that it would become too intense and a constant turn on as you can't exactly leave the weightgain in the bedroom, it stays with you. Is this true about it being so intense, or is it just my worries, or would the novelty wear off or is this part of the kink?
Sounds like you've been repressing your fetishes a bit. Some people are happy to leave things in fantasy while others are not.
From what you've said, fantasy is not enough for you. If you enjoy being lean, there are adjacent kinks you can dabble in - padding, bloating, inflating. You can even stuff yourself from time to time without gaining.
But if the urg you feel can only be satisfied by gaining, I'd take the time to figure out what you actually want. Do you want to be a muscle chub? Just chubby? Fat? What's holding you back from realizing your dreams? Is it something you are willing to overcome?
Once you figure that out, your next steps will be clearer.
