Bigdoug:
I don’t mind being unfit. Being unfit and having some health issues related to my weight isn’t necessarily a goal of mine but it’s also not a dealbreaker. Sometimes I do take some pleasure in being “negatively” impacted by my fat. I actually rather enjoy it when my heavy big belly gets in the way of moving quickly or fitting places.
what you wrote is very similar to how i feel.
after spending 20+ years of my adult life going to the gym 4-5 times a week, maintaining a high degree of fitness, it was a real switch to give that up -completely- and become more hedonistic... but oh my gosh, once that switch was flipped, it became so delightful.
like you, some of the limitations i experienced due to my size and lack of fitness have been exciting and enjoyable, too.
recently i've been changing my lifestyle, lost a little weight (like 2% lol) to address some health issues... when the health or fitness issues become an impediment rather than something that you enjoy, that's when it's an issue. my hope is i can find that balance where i can live the lifestyle i enjoy, but do it for as long as possible.