Public displays of fat are an important part of gaining for me. It took me a lot of courage at first, but I kept reminding myself that part of the experience for me was showing off my blubber and imagining what people were thinking of me.
You do have to choose your times and places. Now and then, I enjoy going out wearing a shirt with the buttons gapping even when standing and/or my belly pudging out somewhat underneath. I like people seeing my porky body and knowing that I've been putting on weight.
The ultimate challenge for me was buying a bikini and fulfilling a lifelong fantasy. I bought a stars-and-stripes one because that's what our Olympic athletes wear and I love how it looks contrasted with my pale, flabby, obese body. My heart was thumping the first time I went to the beach but I kept reminding myself that this is what I wanted all along, for everyone to see how fat I've become.
The greatest was bringing three footlong subs with me and eating them all in like 15 minutes with people staring at me. So humiliating and HOT.
3 weeks
