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Hi everyone,
I’m really struggling right now. I have had this fetish for a long time, and it becomes especially overwhelming when I’m slightly manic and worse when I’m fully manic (I have bipolar disorder). During those times, I fully give into it and obsess over it. But once the mania is over, my eating disorders takes over (I struggle with bulimia and anorexia). It feels like I’m constantly stuck in a tug-of-war between these parts of myself. I’ve tried doing some bloats (with water and diet soda) but it just isn’t hitting right. So I was just curious if anyone else deals with anything like this and how can I figure out a happy middle ground.

Are you in treatment for your bipolar and ED?

Munchies:
Are you in treatment for your bipolar and ED?[/quote]

So I’m currently working with both a therapist and a psychiatrist (which both are aware of this situation lol). We are also in the process of adjusting my medications for bipolar disorder. They’ve also brought up the option of me getting help from an actual eating disorder clinic/center but that decision is ultimately up to me. Also I’m not for sure how to reply I’m so sorry.

Munchies:
Are you in treatment for your bipolar and ED?

Elis137:
So I’m currently working with both a therapist and a psychiatrist (which both are aware of this situation lol). We are also in the process of adjusting my medications for bipolar disorder. They’ve also brought up the option of me getting help from an actual eating disorder clinic/center but that decision is ultimately up to me. Also I’m not for sure how to reply I’m so sorry.[/quote]

If your lack of balance is due to your bipolar and ED, I'd focus on getting those worked on. Bipolar and ED are both very treatable, and there are numerous people in this community that have one or both of these things.