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Hey all. It’s been ages since I joined a Feederism site. I first found the Feederism community back in the 90s on AOL Fat and Gaining chat and Dimensions. Those were the Wild West days of feederism ha. I wonder if there are any old timers from those days here

When I first found those sites back then I was just an avg weight guy and would not have called myself a feedee. I would have said I was an FA for sure and I almost exclusively dated big girls.

By the end of the 90s I was in a serious relationship with a Ssbbw model in the community who had a Rolodex of kinks lol. And one of them that was really strong for her was having a submissive parter she could feed. So that’s how the feedee lifestyle started for me. I was with her for nearly seven years and put on a lot of weight, That relationship ended and a couple years later i was with another partner that was also very into the kink. By about 2014 my weight hit the high point of 580 lbs.

I’ve been thinking of telling my story on here but not sure which forum or if it would be appropriate for the story section (is it fiction only?).

Or maybe i could just do an AMA here. Or maybe no one cares to hear about the whole crazy experience of going from some avg FA to a superchub.

My current weight is 480 and my gaining days are over. I just turned 50.

But I still like to discuss the kink even though I don’t partake anymore. So feel free to hit me up.

Nice to meet an alumni. I never joined any fat-related sites until the late 2010's. I was 18 years old when I first stumbled upon Dimensions thanks to Ashblonde's BHM/FFA love stories.

Around my mid-teen years I would fall down the rabbit hole of BHM fat art on Deviantart and that was how I discovered my awakening. I also dated a chubby friend in highschool who was in my special ed class back in elementary.

Yes! The stories feature is a great way capture this. It's not just fiction in there, people write autobiographies all the time, or write stories inspired by real events.

Sounds like a good read!

Please post in the non fiction stories. This would be something I’d read. (And many people would.).
Also I’m in the chat a lot in the evenings and I’d love to hear about your experience if you’re up for it.

The best stories are often those based on actual events :-) I’ve written about mine and my wife’s gaining journey through the years on several threads in the forum section. When the occasion pops up where it’s appropriate to tell it again, I just dig it up and paste it.

PM me if you’ve not read it — it’s all true and real :-)

I'm 51, and remember those beginnings. Before the internet, I thought I was the only one. But I thought I was only an admirer, and stayed thin almost all my life. But when I finally discovered putting on a few pounds, and then a few more, it was like my soul opened up. I'm not THAT big, but happily continuing to eat. 😁 Starting so late, I do have to keep health stuff on the backburner. 😆

oh damn.. I would love to hear more about your story all the physical psychological changes that came with that much weight gain.

I remember those places - also the FattenUp website started by a guy whose gf started gaining weight and he discovered he really liked it. She was such a cutie too. That site and the input from others there really helped me realize I wasn’t the only one that liked bigger girls or getting bigger myself.

I was there too. What a coincidence fnaf 1!

I would certainly be interested in reading your experiences sometime.

I wouldn't say I was particularly active back then, but I certainly remember mostly lurking around a lot of that old stuff. Back when Yahoo Groups were still a thing. Back when Kelligrrl and SexyMic were still active. Back when Dimensions was more than just a message board, yet was pretty much the only game in town, AOL and Yahoo notwithstanding.

Think I even still remember back then, the kind of feeling I had when I first discovered this sort of thing online. I remember seeing the various weight loss ads on magazines or on TV, and thinking that at least 95% of the time, the before picture looked better. I guess at some point, I wondered if there was anyone who was deliberately trying to get fatter on purpose.

So, I searched on Excite!, or perhaps it was Lycos or Yahoo Search. I think I used a phrase like:

"weight gain" "before and after" pictures

Or phrases like:

"getting fatter" pictures

The quotes were important to match the literal phrase, because otherwise searching for weight gain could return results about gaining confidence from weight loss, which was not what I was looking for at all.

At that point, I discovered Dimensions. I don't really know how else to describe it, so here goes. It was almost as if St. Peter opened up the gates in the sky, and the angels were all singing Hallelujah! It totally blew my mind at the time. I wasn't crazy! It wasn't just me! Somewhere, in this big wide world, there were others who felt as I do.

Keep in mind this was a time when you would be made to feel bad if you ever dared admit that a 5'3", 160 lb girl was possibly attractive, and didn't want her to lose 40 lbs. And don't even dare think, much less admit out loud that you wish she'd gain 40 lbs, and maybe even more than that.

The department stores never had any plus-size mannequins, and suggesting that one use Lane Bryant clothes was derogatory.

This was also when just a few years earlier, the film What's Eating Gilbert Grape? was released. I didn't like how his mother was portrayed, that she was basically a depressed shut-in who never left the house, and that she was fat only because she became a slob who didn't care about anything. Then in the final scene where she went to the courthouse to post bail for her other son who's mentally disabled, everyone around her pointed and laughed at her, mocking how fat she was.

I certainly couldn't really understand such attitudes. Most of the fat people I met back then, actually seemed very nice. Yet I remember this skinny kindergarten teacher I had who was skinny but also a bit of a bitch, like the Wicked Witch of the West.

Very dark times indeed back then, the 90s and before. I hope they never come back.

The funny thing is, I actually saw that film again recently and while the film was still as sad as I remember, Gilbert's mother actually wasn't that big after all. Any time I go out the door, I'm guaranteed to see quite a few people as big as she is, or even bigger. No one cares anymore or gives them any grief.

I don't even know how many hours I spent looking through and getting lost on the entire web site of Dimensions. All the stories from the Weight Room, all the personal accounts, the featured images of Kelligrrl and others, and so on.

I even remember Dimensions had a mod for The Sims 1 for fat sims, and I regret not downloading it. A couple years ago someone asked me if I had those files, and I had to disappoint him. It didn't help that I was using dial-up, and that download would have taken a long time.