Fat experiences

Sounds kind of awesome tbh! Foundations come in all sorts.

I think something that set the stage in early childhood was me sitting with my grandmother - my head laying on her soft belly.

Then what "sparked" my interest was an old site called "thespark.com" and their "gain 30 pounds in 30 days challenge". It's still out on archive.org. I followed the daily updates with a large interest. That's also about the time when I found this site in its early days...

Oh I remember the spark’s fat project. That was pretty special at the time.

i remember watching a really old YouTube video that covered harmful feederism. I was immediately turned off so I never explored it. Many years later (about 3 months ago) I met a FFA and we got to talking about it and she introduced me to the world and let me know it doesn't have to be on the extreme side like my original introduction years ago. so here i am and have met some really nice ppl so far.

I'm disabled and get help with daily tasks from personal care assistants. When I was a teenager there were two primary ones who helped my parents. One was fairly thin, the other very obese. I had a very powerful crush on her.
I always had access to the internet, so it was easy to find the community.

I always struggled being less than chubby, but noticed whenever someone would comment on my weight (especially around the holidays) I wouldn’t feel upset or shameful but embarrassingly excited? And then it was pretty much over the first time I tried stuffing myself for fun, I enjoyed it way too much 🫢

When I was very young, I saw the cartoon “Pigs Is Pigs” on TV. For anyone not familiar with the cartoon, it is the story of a greedy little pig that is forced feed by a mad scientist using a feeding machine. At the end of the cartoon, the pig has been stuffed full, but can’t resist eating one more thing offered him, causing him to explode. It is supposed to be a warning against greed and gluttony, but it had the opposite effect on me, making me drawn to gluttony in myself and others.