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My kidself's bffs mom was very large (if I had to guess I'd say in the 400lb range) and I remember she was huggable and would make us fresh cookies and KD and we could eat as much as we wanted afterschool 2-3 days a week.

I remember in 2nd grade being distinctly aware that I was the only kid with a round visible tummy too.

i've thought about this a lot... wanting to understand where it came from. I have several very early memories, kindergarden or younger.

I was very aware that I had a big round tummy very young. We had a girl my age a few houses down and we'd play together and often we'd compare our tummies and mine was always so much bigger and stuck out more. I was kinda fascinated by it, how big it was, rubbing it, eating, filling it.

I know I liked feeling full... I remember sitting at the table, I think possibly still in a high chair and asking for more food because "I want more in my tummy...My tummy wants more" or something. The grownups all laughed I remember that.

And another very early memory: my grandfather was very fat and a big eater. Tiny me tried to eat as much as he did... i can hear his low rumbly laugh as he jokingly egged me on... and i can still see his big belly shaking as he laughed, and how enormously full I felt.

I also have distinct memories of stuffing a pillow in my shirt or my pyjama onesie from like 3-4 or so... in my cot while napping after lunch. I remember it felt so comforting to have a full stomach and then my huge pillow-belly to hug.

I also figured out very early that if i used elastic but robust materials I could recreate the kind of pressure I felt when I overate, I had this one fairy or mermaid leotard thing for dress-up and it was very shiny and very stretchy but also extremely resistant to force.

I would put on that leotard over a very thick and fluffy sweater that i'd stuffed more clothes under and oooooh the compression on my big tummy felt so good, and also how enormous it looked... I'd waddle around my room, arching my back, sticking my tummy out as far as it went and rub my hands all over it's shiny smooth roundness.

And then later came the books and stuff I just obsessed over. that part in Matilda, with the chocolate cake...

I remember being intensely excited about seeing fat characters in cartoons when I was little. What I vividly remember is that one Fairly Oddparents episode in which everybody becomes fat because Timmy wished the entire world would only eat desserts. That episode was my ecstasy. It put me in some sort of euphoric state, something I never felt before.

But there are many others like the Simpsons episode in which Homer got even fatter than he already is... the Fat Kat episode from Kid vs Kat... there was also some weight gain happening in American Dragon... The weight gain of the mayor from Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs... Just to name a few I still have in mind.

Maybe somebody has seen Mister Maker before. It was an arts and crafts show, and occasionally four huge shapes would show up, dance and sing. A triangle, square, rectangle and circle. I was 5 years old or younger when I used to watch that show, and I was so into the circle because he was so big and round. It makes me laugh thinking about it now because it was simply just a talking circle with a face and legs.

i first realised i was into bigger girls when some of the girls at school got fat in early high school

My earliest memory is when I was a child. I always wanted to be fat; just like my aunts were. My mother took my sister and I to the movies to see Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory and my favorite character in the movie was Violet Beauragarde. She chewed a certain type of gum that wasn’t ready for consumption. She turned into a blueberry; to a point where she started waddling and had to be rolled away to the juicing room.

When I was eight years old, I started eating a lot; no matter if I was hungry or not. I would snack here and snack there. By the time school started, I gotten fat. My mother and sister were always thin. That time, I gained fifty pounds and tipped the scales at 100-lbs. My belly would poke out of my shirt because my shirts would get smaller. I was heavier than my sister; who was still slender. She would tease me about my weight and put my round belly. When we the neighborhood kids would race, I came in last. My cousin who is the same age as I am and also fat, would have an eating contest. By then, our bellies would be poking out of our shirts and jiggle when we waddle. At family gatherings; relatives notice how fat I gotten and would pat my belly. My cousin and I would have a “Belly Bucking” contest as two nine year olds. My cousin and I would bump our big bellies; that would overhang our jeans, to bump each other to the ground. Back then, my mother tried putting me on several diets to lose weight. I didn’t stick to them. I had lost weight in the past several times; and I said enough was enough. In my adult years, I gained weight and I accepted my fat acceptance.

My earliest memory was watching the film Wall-e and thinking how good the life of the fat people would be. They ate what they want and got transported around in their chairs without even having to lift a finger. I always wondered what the human race would be like if everyone lived in that state?

Wouldn't you have been about 8 when that movie came out?

I was 8 when Wall-E came out. Oddly enough, I never got much out of the fat people in the ship. Maybe I am just not into the super obese types.

Anyways, I used to constantly watch the OG Charlotte's Web on DVD around kindergarten age. I was fixated on that one scene where Templeton the rat goes on a eating spree and gains a huge sloshy belly.

At one point I drank a lot of water to mimic the scene and would slosh my stomach.

You are the second person on FF I've run into that had a Templeton fixation.

Honestly, I don’t have one clear memory that started my attraction to fat or weight gain, but there are a few moments from childhood that really stuck with me. One of them is that (obviously) Simpsons episode where Homer is sent to hell and forced to eat endless donuts until he gets huge. It was meant to be a punishment, but I remember being captivated by the idea of getting filled up like that, growing bigger without end.

Also in Harry Potter 3, when Aunt Marge inflates and floats away, the way it’s described in the book and shown in the movie really left an impression on me.

Another big one (like everyone else,maybe) was in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, when Violet turns into a giant blueberry and swells up massively. I watched that scene over and over, fascinated by the idea of losing control and being filled like that. What a scene!

But maybe the most personal memory is from studies, there was this really fat girl in my class, huge compared to the other kids. I was incredibly attracted to her, I just wanted to be near her or with her, but I was too embarrassed for people to see me with her. I kept it all inside, but the curiosity and the desire never went away.