Bigdoug:
I have loved fat ever since I can remember. Obviously, a big part of my “fat love” is not sexually motivated, since I was intrigued and attracted to fat as a child long before puberty and sexuality. I have always loved food and eating and in my child’s mind I think I equated being fat with unlimited access to your favorite foods. And even now, although I am sexually attracted to fat women, I appreciate and find fat beautiful in all genders. I love fat as a sign of gluttony and abundance!
Yes, there is a reason I started loving fat and it goes way back. I grew up in a home where fat wasn’t demonized but lived in. My parents were both big, soft, and full of life. Mealtimes were sacred, loud, joyful. My grandma? She was the classic feeder, though we didn’t have that word for it then. She’d pile my plate high and say, “Eat, eat, you’re too skinny!” And I was.
I was the thin kid in a fat-loving household, always looking up at my parents’ round bellies, how they filled space, how they moved with ease and fullness. It fascinated me. I admired fat before I ever understood desire. It wasn’t sexual back then it was symbolic. Fat meant comfort, security, indulgence. I saw it as proof that someone got to have what they wanted. And slowly, I started wanting it too.
As I got older, I stopped resisting. I started letting myself go and enjoying food without guilt, eating past fullness, giving in to the pull that had always been there. With each pound, I felt more at home in my body, more aligned with who I really was.
Now Everything changed again. Recently, I met a female feeder, someone who truly gets this side of me, who sees not just the body I have, but the one I’m becoming. Her encouragement, her hunger for my growth, has pushed me deeper into this world than ever before. I’m not just dabbling anymore. I’m in it. Fully. I’m on a furious, delicious journey to become really big. And it feels like everything I’ve always wanted is finally taking shape in softness, in size, in surrender.
So yes, I’ve loved fat since before I knew what it meant. But now I’m living it and growing fast hehe
