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As a very small child, I already had a pot belly, and I remember pushing it out to make it even bigger. I often laid in bed secretly pretending I was very very fat and fantasizing about eating large quantities. I think it's likely some early media inspired some of these fantasies, or maybe it was my mother's fixation on thinness and diet culture. She often would describe certain foods as good or bad, and she focused heavily on losing 5 or 10 lb for special occasions. Somehow, the reverse thought pattern took root in my brain. If restricting food made her as thin as she wanted to be, then eating a lot would make me as fat as I wanted to be. It's no surprise that I'm now a 600 plus pounder, given how long this has been taking up residence in my head..

For me, an attraction to larger figures began quite early. My first memory of encountering fat was a regained memory told to me years after the fact by my mother. I would play with the arm fat of any female relative when I was a toddler and was being held. I’m told my grandmother slapped me one time for doing it.

As I often tell when I share mine and my wife’s gaining story, I truly felt the attraction to chubby girls starting in middle school and on into high school. I didn’t have a girlfriend until I was out of high school (wasn’t ever part of the clique, as they say), but nothing turned me on like a pair of chubby cheeks, chubby upper arms or big thighs. Chubby bare feet still turn me on as well :-) And in adulthood, big soft bellies really get me going :-)

I used to watch morning cartoons eating bkfast/getting ready before school. There was an old-timey episode where Goofy sees his "fat" reflection in the mirror, decides he will lose weight, but then just can't stop himself from overeating while his own reflection teases him. I don't remember necessarily being aroused by it so much as just definitely remembering it, being very interested in watching that in another person. You can google Goofy "Tomorrow We Diet":

To be honest not really sure but cartoons semmed to be a huge factor. It's interesting how every cartoon has an episode where one manages to get fat or stuffing themselves to a point they can't get up...

I was fascinated with fat and weight gain from a pretty young age. I would stuff pillows under my pajamas at night to make a fat belly, and I stuffed my dolls' clothes to give them fat bellies until I got caught. That was awkward. I'm not sure what, if any, media might have inspired this. Maybe some of the old Looney Tunes where Porky Pig gets super fat?

As far as real life inspiration goes, my grandma was always fat and I loved her hugs. Not just because grandma hugs are great (which they are), I loved the softness and the feeling of being enveloped.

I was 5 years old in ymca summer camp, and they showed the film Heavyweights one day. I was so infatuated with this movie and I remember I loved this scene where these kids captured the fat camp counselors and started eating all the junk food they wanted and then woke up the next morning and everyone was feeling it and their stomachs hurt from eating so much. I knew after seeing that they day that I loved fatness and that I wanted to look exactly like the people I had seen in the movie

For me, the earliest memory goes back to when I was about 10 years old. I used to watch anime, and while I don’t clearly remember the characters, there was one episode that stuck with me, several girls ate so much that they ended up with round, full bellies.

Later on, one of my cousins gained quite a bit of weight over the course of a year, and I found myself enjoying seeing her like that.

Over time, I began to realize that I had a particular fondness for watching people gain weight… and for curvy girls in general