Gaining

I would say with me it was takeaways. I always loved ordering them, but I would only allow them as a kind of reward, once a week at most. A few years ago, I started ordering whenever I felt like one, and I think that was the biggest change.

In a matter of months, I went from being underweight to where I am now. I mean, I'm not sure I qualify as 'fat' yet, but I'm definitely not underweight!

I was very underweight for a long time until my mid 20's then I slowly agined to be about normal weight for a long time. I laways had a desire to be fat but did not know where this came from, I was always also xconerned about being helathy. Thus the conflict. Plus I have a family which is really against being over weight. Anyway about 10 years ago I started trying to intentially gaining weight and got to clost to 175 - which for me is the borderline to being overweioght. I dopped it back to 160 but a few years later went on another binge and crossed the line to 180. Again I dropped back to about 160 until this last round whcih started about 18 months ago. This time I kept gaing in spurts and got all the way to 196 - definetly in hte overweight stage. This time i really noticed changes in my body. I now had rolls of fat adn thighs that touched. I did NOT wnat to stop but I did. This time I did not lose the weight. I ahve hovered around 190 now but the intense urge to get to 200 is back. At 210 I become obses and I cannot help bu wonder what I would feel like. Before my motto was I could always lose it. I am not sure that works anymore. Not sure what I will do this time. Anyway i was normal weight for a long time and have only been over weight a few years. I still can wear my shirts but some are getting quite tight. I had to move to 36 inch jeans a long time ago ...

I'm literally at the beginning of my journey still quite slim but I am trying my best out here

More and more takeout just started really adding up. Plus I’m completely sedentary now.

I used to be conscious of what people thought, It started with random stuffings, that never really got much for results, but then I started small with never letting there be leftovers. I started gaining weight, getting teased a little bit here and there and it didn't bother me as much as I thought, so then it progressed to double meals and sneaking meals, never shying away from a free snack. I also find it's crazy how after a few stuffings in a row, it's impossible to be satisfied with a regular portion. Now when people make a comment about my gain, it feels like recognition for something I've worked very hard on. It's very rewarding..