Morbidly A Beast:
I don’t know what to do. I’ve been in the space for 3 years and I can’t say I have had high expectations to even begin with but the lack of any sort of interest has me wondering if it will ever happen I just feel a bit crushed as of late by it. Don’t get me wrong I love the space and I’m enjoying my appetite and its consequence I’m not really complaining or asking for pity or anything like that. It’s just tough out here for a fat guy and being in a fat positive space isn’t much better.
Does anyone older/commited to the fetish ever feel this way?
Yes, i feel like i will never find a girlfriend. I might be in a worse place than you. There is 3 reasons for why that may be.
I have never went out on a date in the past 7 years (i dont go out much, im shy, i can't talk to people i dont know - I went to a fetlife munch recently and i was able to talk with only one woman).
Aside from that i am attracted to intelligence before anything else. In fact its necesary that i trust the intelligence of a woman, in order to want to live with her, etc. And i sense that most people (and by extention, most women - which is who im looking to date) are not intelligent. I might be very sensitive to finding problems in peoples' rationality, but i can't turn this off. It makes me extremely uncomfortable to be in the presense of someone who is using incorrect logic. I've gone through this when i was in a D&D so i have experience of it.
The third reason is this fetish. I wanna have sex too, and my sexuality necesarily involves feedism, so i wouldn't like being with a partner that is not super into this.
I am feeling as if i stand on the outpost of lonelyness.
Or at least that's what i would feel like, if it weren't for the few, wonderful people i consider true friends! :3 Im blessed to have them!