Romy:
Immobility requires significant expenses to access comforts, in addition to requiring permanent assistance. In my case, we had to hire a nurse.
The bariatric lift is essential, but when I reached 900 lbs, it was torture to be suspended in the air with it.
Too much weight, and the bed compressed my entire body, causing me great pain.
They helped me gain weight, and I enjoyed eating everything I could swallow at each meal. But at my heaviest weight, I was completely useless and couldn't turn over in bed without assistance; getting out of bed with the lift was impossible.
The fluid retention was extreme, and they couldn't control my blood pressure; my legs hurt a lot.
I was extremely limited by my weight, and all the comforts I had in my room became useless. I was truly suffering from my weight.
Still, no one stopped feeding me, and I didn't stop demanding food either. Luckily, I collapsed due to my high blood pressure, and my husband said enough was enough.
I lost weight and am on a "controlled" calorie diet. It's not a diet, and sometimes they let me overeat, but my body reached its limit there.
Today I weigh 700 pounds, and I remember that at that weight I could walk, but I'm still bedridden.
Being in a bed with no comforts was horrible, and even more so having poor hygiene because of my body size.
In fairness to you, you are still recovering from the severe strain you put on your body. Still, that's a huge deal to lose as much as you have seeing how things were several months ago.
I'm very proud of you Romy. I never doubted you for a second. It is my hope that you find a size that you can do all the things you love to do without pain and still be fat.