Fat experiences

For the first time in 16 years I don't have abs, and im jiggling. I'm still far from fat by most peoples standards but it's by far the most fat I've ever had on me

It was just a while ago, when on one occasion I had to do jumping jacks, and it was quite noticeable that nearly every part of my body was jiggling.

One of my first wad when I popped a button on my favorite pants and the button flew about 6 feet!

I think my first real fatty moment was at the doctor's office last year and the helper gal asked me to pull my untucked shirt back so she could read the scale. Priceless.....

This is starting to happen to me more often. I used to buy men XL t-shirts to sleep in and they fit a little like a dress. No one could tell if I had underwear on or not (I prefer to sleep without them). Now I definitely couldn't wear them without panties and even then they would be much too revealing!

Having to buy t-shirts in a 3XLT size & not being able to fit into any other brand shirts, other than Carhartt. Yet some people keep buying me shirts other than Carhartt & they never fit. Seems like I get the reminder every year.

Maybe it was when I outgrew one-piece desks at university.

I knew I had put on weight because I had to buy larger clothing but I did not realize how much. I was walking down a corridor at work while checking emails on my phone. I looked up real quick to check where I was at and thought I saw a fat person at the end of the corridor walking towards me. When I took a second longer look, I realized that what I saw was my own reflection in a large mirror that was at the end of the corridor. I did not have a full length mirror at home, so up to then, I never realized how fat I looked.

Feeling my clothes get tight and realizing my stomach doesn’t go concave when I lie down

I finally built up the courage to start trying my old clothes and deciding whether I should keep them in my active wardrobe (still fits OK or a little tight but not noticeably so), put them in storage (too tight to wear at my current size but might fit again if I manage to lose a bit of weight.... which seems less and less likely as the months go by if I'm honest with myself) or sell/donate (not even close to fitting and no chance in hell it will ever again even if I lose a lot of weight... unless I have another anorexia relapse because the last time I lost 50% of my BW going from an XL to an XS).

The process is not fun for me, especially the tops as my breast/chest and upper arms ballooned in the last 2 years.

Some I can't even get on because my boobs are in the way or my arms can't get into the sleeves. This a top I adored I reluctantly had to put in the sell/donate pile.

I was surprised by a couple of pieces that I expected to not fit (as XS dress but the fabric is really stretchy and flowy so I put it in the "storage" pile) and other I expected to be very tight but not skin tight/not enough fabric to cover both my belly (which isn't that big really) and my butt (I definitely was in denial about how big it is).

I know maybe people here are into that, but I heard a few stitches get undone and one of my skirts' seam tore a little bit on the side (I'll need to repair it to sell it... I wish I wore it more often while it fit me, I'm jealous of the person who'll purchased it).

At least this didn't happen in a store dressing room! I'd be mortified and too ashamed to tell anyone so I'd just buy the item and leave the store. I wonder if there is a general store policy for that type of situations? Do you HAVE to pay for the damaged item?

I don't understand how I'm still gaining weight... This has been going on slowly but surely for the last 2 years. I think I'm almost as fat as before my anorexia relapse!

I went back to my endocrinologist who at last officially diagnosed me with PCOS (something I suspected for a very lot time as I have all the symptoms even if my labs and my ovaries are normal).

I told him I was outgrowing all my clothes (even the ones I bought only a few months ago) so he insisted to weight me because the last time I saw him apparently my BMI was still in the normal range. Like last time I go on the scale backwards and asked him not to tell me the number (I actually closed my eyes when he typed it on the keyboard).

I might be autistic, but from his facial expression I'm 100% sure my BMI is over 25 now... I just hope it's not already over 30. He advised me to lose some weight (!) to better manage the PCOS symptoms, especially the irregular periods. As if I'm not already trying...

True I indulge sometimes (I'm a sugar addict and end up bingeing on sweets if I deprive myself of cookies, pastries, ice cream, chocolate...) but overall I eat very little and mostly healthy foods (I reintroduced breaded chicken and sweet potato fries in my diet but rarely eat that).

For now he prescribed me metformin (but he told me not to expect more than a 2.5 kg weight loss from it) and spironolactone (for the androgenic symptoms). He wanted to prescribe me a contraceptive pill but I'm too afraid I'll gain even more weight on it.

To my surprise he was willing to prescribe me a GLP1 agonist (off label because my BMI isn't high enough... at least I don't think so?) but they're expensive, cause a lot of side effects, are not always effective and when they are you have to stay on them forever otherwise you'll gain back all the weight. I told him I'd rather wait for now but I'd be lying if I said I'm not considering the option.