Lifestyle tips

GardenGrower13:
I'm wondering if anyone might have an experience similar to mine and be able to offer some advice.

I'm a gainer who has truly wanted to be fat since childhood and has never really viewed fatness as a negative thing when it comes to other people. However, I've grappled with a lot of internalized fatphobia and shame about sexual desires, so I have mostly just been a bit chubby throughout my years of on and off gaining. I got over my internalized fatphobia by the time I deliberately crossed into "obesity" and lived there for some time, but then I involuntarily lost a lot of weight because I hadn't been gaining in a healthy way.

I slowly regained some of the weight, then several months ago I came to terms with my sexual guilt and accepted that I did want to actually try to gain again, just being a lot more careful with my diet.

I've been having a lot of success with this for the past few weeks, and I estimate that I've gained over ten pounds without putting a significant amount of strain on my digestion like I did before. A lot of this is easier for me now because I'm using an app to keep track of my macros every day. I PROMISE this isn't an ad, this post is not about that app lol.

So if my guilt isn't about Being Fat, and it's not about the whole Kink of it all, then what am I feeling guilty about, you might ask? The mere act of eating food, more than I physically require. I don't hold other people to the same standards as myself in this, but when it comes to me, seeing the amount of excess food I'm deliberately consuming (while this is all very hot lol) makes me feel guilty when I think about the people who don't have access to food. The fact that every dollar I spend on some extra food for me, especially extra fresh and healthy food, could be spent to help feed someone in need instead... And I don't know how to cope with that.

I spoke with my therapist about it, (leaving out the parts about deliberately gaining because I don't particularly want to be talked out of it) and she suggested that instead of focusing on all the money/time/food I'm Not giving to people in need, I should focus on what I can do and put energy into doing that, whether it's a donation or volunteering.

This is the direction I was leaning before talking to her as well, but I'm struggling to figure out what that should look like for me. I find myself wondering, How much do I need to do before it's enough? How much is too much? Will I ever feel like I'm truly doing the right thing or can I get over feeling like I'm "wasting resources" on myself?

I've cancelled my frivolous monthly subscriptions as a start, looking to cancel the yearly ones next. But how do I maintain a healthy amount of my hedonistic, "live in the moment" mindset that gets me through the hard times without becoming uncompassionate for people who don't ever have the option to live that way?

If you read everything here, I'm grateful. If you have thoughts on this or related experiences you'd like to share, I'd appreciate that too!

GardenGrower13:
I'm wondering if anyone might have an experience similar to mine and be able to offer some advice.

I'm a gainer who has truly wanted to be fat since childhood and has never really viewed fatness as a negative thing when it comes to other people. However, I've grappled with a lot of internalized fatphobia and shame about sexual desires, so I have mostly just been a bit chubby throughout my years of on and off gaining. I got over my internalized fatphobia by the time I deliberately crossed into "obesity" and lived there for some time, but then I involuntarily lost a lot of weight because I hadn't been gaining in a healthy way.

I slowly regained some of the weight, then several months ago I came to terms with my sexual guilt and accepted that I did want to actually try to gain again, just being a lot more careful with my diet.

I've been having a lot of success with this for the past few weeks, and I estimate that I've gained over ten pounds without putting a significant amount of strain on my digestion like I did before. A lot of this is easier for me now because I'm using an app to keep track of my macros every day. I PROMISE this isn't an ad, this post is not about that app lol.

So if my guilt isn't about Being Fat, and it's not about the whole Kink of it all, then what am I feeling guilty about, you might ask? The mere act of eating food, more than I physically require. I don't hold other people to the same standards as myself in this, but when it comes to me, seeing the amount of excess food I'm deliberately consuming (while this is all very hot lol) makes me feel guilty when I think about the people who don't have access to food. The fact that every dollar I spend on some extra food for me, especially extra fresh and healthy food, could be spent to help feed someone in need instead... And I don't know how to cope with that.

I spoke with my therapist about it, (leaving out the parts about deliberately gaining because I don't particularly want to be talked out of it) and she suggested that instead of focusing on all the money/time/food I'm Not giving to people in need, I should focus on what I can do and put energy into doing that, whether it's a donation or volunteering.

This is the direction I was leaning before talking to her as well, but I'm struggling to figure out what that should look like for me. I find myself wondering, How much do I need to do before it's enough? How much is too much? Will I ever feel like I'm truly doing the right thing or can I get over feeling like I'm "wasting resources" on myself?

I've cancelled my frivolous monthly subscriptions as a start, looking to cancel the yearly ones next. But how do I maintain a healthy amount of my hedonistic, "live in the moment" mindset that gets me through the hard times without becoming uncompassionate for people who don't ever have the option to live that way?

If you read everything here, I'm grateful. If you have thoughts on this or related experiences you'd like to share, I'd appreciate that too!

Morbidly A Beast:
Poor people are not poor because others have. You having abundance does not mean you are depriving others of theirs.

I think “we” meaning society/government could do a lot more for those unfortunate. And food is almost the last thing they need help with, and this isn’t to say “fogetabooout it” imo drugs/alcohol gambling/mental illness are bigger problems

GardenGrower13:
I'm wondering if anyone might have an experience similar to mine and be able to offer some advice.

I'm a gainer who has truly wanted to be fat since childhood and has never really viewed fatness as a negative thing when it comes to other people. However, I've grappled with a lot of internalized fatphobia and shame about sexual desires, so I have mostly just been a bit chubby throughout my years of on and off gaining. I got over my internalized fatphobia by the time I deliberately crossed into "obesity" and lived there for some time, but then I involuntarily lost a lot of weight because I hadn't been gaining in a healthy way.

I slowly regained some of the weight, then several months ago I came to terms with my sexual guilt and accepted that I did want to actually try to gain again, just being a lot more careful with my diet.

I've been having a lot of success with this for the past few weeks, and I estimate that I've gained over ten pounds without putting a significant amount of strain on my digestion like I did before. A lot of this is easier for me now because I'm using an app to keep track of my macros every day. I PROMISE this isn't an ad, this post is not about that app lol.

So if my guilt isn't about Being Fat, and it's not about the whole Kink of it all, then what am I feeling guilty about, you might ask? The mere act of eating food, more than I physically require. I don't hold other people to the same standards as myself in this, but when it comes to me, seeing the amount of excess food I'm deliberately consuming (while this is all very hot lol) makes me feel guilty when I think about the people who don't have access to food. The fact that every dollar I spend on some extra food for me, especially extra fresh and healthy food, could be spent to help feed someone in need instead... And I don't know how to cope with that.

I spoke with my therapist about it, (leaving out the parts about deliberately gaining because I don't particularly want to be talked out of it) and she suggested that instead of focusing on all the money/time/food I'm Not giving to people in need, I should focus on what I can do and put energy into doing that, whether it's a donation or volunteering.

This is the direction I was leaning before talking to her as well, but I'm struggling to figure out what that should look like for me. I find myself wondering, How much do I need to do before it's enough? How much is too much? Will I ever feel like I'm truly doing the right thing or can I get over feeling like I'm "wasting resources" on myself?

I've cancelled my frivolous monthly subscriptions as a start, looking to cancel the yearly ones next. But how do I maintain a healthy amount of my hedonistic, "live in the moment" mindset that gets me through the hard times without becoming uncompassionate for people who don't ever have the option to live that way?

If you read everything here, I'm grateful. If you have thoughts on this or related experiences you'd like to share, I'd appreciate that too!

GardenGrower13:
I'm wondering if anyone might have an experience similar to mine and be able to offer some advice.

I'm a gainer who has truly wanted to be fat since childhood and has never really viewed fatness as a negative thing when it comes to other people. However, I've grappled with a lot of internalized fatphobia and shame about sexual desires, so I have mostly just been a bit chubby throughout my years of on and off gaining. I got over my internalized fatphobia by the time I deliberately crossed into "obesity" and lived there for some time, but then I involuntarily lost a lot of weight because I hadn't been gaining in a healthy way.

I slowly regained some of the weight, then several months ago I came to terms with my sexual guilt and accepted that I did want to actually try to gain again, just being a lot more careful with my diet.

I've been having a lot of success with this for the past few weeks, and I estimate that I've gained over ten pounds without putting a significant amount of strain on my digestion like I did before. A lot of this is easier for me now because I'm using an app to keep track of my macros every day. I PROMISE this isn't an ad, this post is not about that app lol.

So if my guilt isn't about Being Fat, and it's not about the whole Kink of it all, then what am I feeling guilty about, you might ask? The mere act of eating food, more than I physically require. I don't hold other people to the same standards as myself in this, but when it comes to me, seeing the amount of excess food I'm deliberately consuming (while this is all very hot lol) makes me feel guilty when I think about the people who don't have access to food. The fact that every dollar I spend on some extra food for me, especially extra fresh and healthy food, could be spent to help feed someone in need instead... And I don't know how to cope with that.

I spoke with my therapist about it, (leaving out the parts about deliberately gaining because I don't particularly want to be talked out of it) and she suggested that instead of focusing on all the money/time/food I'm Not giving to people in need, I should focus on what I can do and put energy into doing that, whether it's a donation or volunteering.

This is the direction I was leaning before talking to her as well, but I'm struggling to figure out what that should look like for me. I find myself wondering, How much do I need to do before it's enough? How much is too much? Will I ever feel like I'm truly doing the right thing or can I get over feeling like I'm "wasting resources" on myself?

I've cancelled my frivolous monthly subscriptions as a start, looking to cancel the yearly ones next. But how do I maintain a healthy amount of my hedonistic, "live in the moment" mindset that gets me through the hard times without becoming uncompassionate for people who don't ever have the option to live that way?

If you read everything here, I'm grateful. If you have thoughts on this or related experiences you'd like to share, I'd appreciate that too!

Munchies:
I am with everyone else. In our country, we have so much food, no one should go hungry. But thanks to shit the government is doing, we have food rotting in the field, and food assistance being cut off.

If you want to help with the SNAP crisis, you can reach out to local organizations like food pantries, and see what they need. A lot of them are running low on food, so shelf stable items are a must. You can also share resources like 211 or findhelp.org.

Get in touch with community gardens if you have any and see what you can do to help. Volunteer your time with soup kitchens or delivering meals to the elderly and shut in.

You have a lot of options. Pick one or two things and do that. Remember, we have the resources to make sure everyone is fed, so you overeating isn't the problem. The problem is corruption.