I've always known (at least since 5-7) that I had a strange fascination with fat and inflation based on all the cartoons and movies with it - but what awakened my recent decision to get back to 360 and go further was a really hot doctor's appointment back when I was still publicly ashamed but inwardly turned on by it (aka my entire life). This appointment was only months ago. I had gained dozens of pounds and she accused me of "gluttonous eating" (she was a small woman). I went beet red and barely heard anything else but just said all the thing I was supposed to say about changing my diet, but the entire time I was mortified because I had been turned on. It was not subtle when she was giving me the physical and I basically almost ran out of there I was so embarrassed.
Binge eating started at midnight, not long after I quit my job because it was full of toxic dudebros and one particularly bad manager. I had stock in the company back when it was worker-owned before the board sold out to a corporation so I can now be comfortable for a while even if I'm not rich.
Partner is a little heavier than me (and almost a foot shorter) but has always loved her body and she loves mine. I don't just love hers - i've always loved mine too, and I've been carrying needless shame for a long time about it. I have always enjoyed sloshing my belly around. It's always been smooth, round, and comforting when i lean forward and it fills my lap. Now I like the feeling of it filling my lap more.
We talk about fantasy stuff often and she shares her things and I share mine to the point where one thing we enjoy doing is having me spin a story when we have time together. I'd never want to influence her unduly, so I waited a looong time to even think about talking about wanting to be bigger myself in anything other than a fantasy scenario. It was no shock that it turned me on after all - we've gone to the holodeck a bunch of times, if you will.
So I basically just was honest with my partner about what I want, negotiated safe limits and check-in milestones, talked about diet - and now she's getting excited helping me think up an onlyfans.
Sprinted in the beginning (started under 2 weeks ago of actual intentional overeating) but felt not fantastic after 4-5 days and decided that it should be treated more like a marathon. The goal has to be how I feel, and I'm going to keep going until it feels right to stop for personal or health reasons.
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