Igetthejoke:
Not traditionally into d/s dynamics except where it intersects with:
Force feeding
Humiliation
Psychological manipulation to associate food and pleasure to rewire me into a shame and lust fueled eating machine that only needs to be forced when I'm getting too full
The way dom/sub stuff turns me on is in the specific case of the aspect being relegated to the power dynamic of me losing mobility and being helpless. Specifically I have no say in how fat I get - I'm clearly a thing to be used and I don't even need my value degraded or to be objectified in a depersonalized sense.
If anything, I want personal tailored psychological manipulation. To be clearly prized and talked about like I'm a person not an object.. but that my desires still don't matter in the face of the overwhelming need and inevitability of them turning me into a human balloon of fat.
I want to be teased and praised, worshipped for my phyicality but also reduced to it but still with the sense that my individuality is present it's just not important compared to my role as their pet project blimp.
The acknowledgement that I am a person but it still doesn't matter because their desire for my impossibly fat future is just obviously more important.
i am not sure what your post is for... are you putting this out there in search of a dom? or are you just sharing what's been in your head for a long time, in a safe space?
a lot of what you wrote really resonates with me, and i am sure with a lot of others here.
i have been very in touch with dom/sub roles throughout my adult life, in a variety of relationships and as both dom and sub at different times. i think it's important to recognize that these roles (among many others) typically require some compromise in a relationship. we're all unlikely to find someone who sees the world (and each other) thru exactly the same lens, and that's ok. in fact, it's much better - otherwise there would be no surprise!
you've done a good job of stating what you like and your limits, and that's an important place to start. i hope you find someone to explore that with you.
