I was always fascinated by fat people ever since I was a little kid. Not sure why, but it goes back as far as I can remember. Once I entered puberty, it turned into sexual attraction. This was the late 90s and SSBBWs were rare to see in public. The internet was new enough that I had no idea that there would be porn or pictures of fat people online. Even if I did, we had a single family computer in the living room and a dial-up 56k modem, so it just wasn't an option anyway, and if I wanted to look at fat women, I had to get creative.
My parents had an art book with a bunch of classic paintings, a few of which featured nudes. I would take a piece of paper and trace over the image, and alter it to make them fatter. Since I was in control of how fat they were, my curiosity pushed me to see what they'd look like at bigger and bigger sizes, over time trying to find the upper limit of fatness, until they were a massive immobile blob. It was a pretty short and obvious leap to go from making a drawing fatter to fantasizing about making real women fatter. So that's how I became a feeder at the age of like 12, without even using the internet.
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