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Not advice, but just want to say I'm on the same boat haha. I'm a feedee, but I don't find it attractive when I gain weight :'( Personally, I find that weight packs on nicer on females, than males.

One of my biggest fantasies since I was young was to wake up and find that I have switched into a female body.

I've played around with the idea of making that fantasy into a reality by transitioning, but I ultimately find that's not what I want. If suddenly I woke up and was a female, then hurray! But to go through the whole process of changing my identity to fulfill a small fantasy, that's not for me. I'm curious to be a women, but I don't need nor want to go through that process.

On a good note, having though of that, I explored why I didn't find bigger men as attractive as bigger females. I found that I was more attracted to soft fat (subcutaneous fat), than hard fat (visceral fat).

For example, a sumo wrestler (which I do find attractive), are made up of a lot of soft fat, and very little hard fats. Not sure if I'd go into the whole regimen, but I'd follow their diet, and exercise in ways to reduce visceral fat. I think in this way, once I start my gaining journey, I will find myself more attractive just like I do when a female gains weight.

It's been a while since you're message so I hope all is well! :3 Happy new year!

Hey, I can actually speak to this a little, as a hypnotist who has worked with a lot of trans women who enjoy gaining weight and discovered all of that after being convinced they were a cishet feeder.

It *is* a thing to consider being an actual truth and not just fetish temptation, because I have seen so many women find themselves through this at this point.

A lot of this is major repression because of cishet normativity interplaying with body-conformity interplaying with social conditioning overall.

If you have any questions, I'm here to answer, not from the perspective of someone who has been there, but from the perspective of someone who has helped the someones' journeys once they realized what they wanted.