Fat experiences

For most of my teenage and adulthood I've felt incredibly misaligned with my body and lately I've experienced so much joy instead. I think partly linked to this fetish (it's turning me on) but also I just feel soooo much more like myself. I almost feel bad that I waited this long to let myself go.

I sat at my desk the other day without my sweater on and looked down and saw how swollen my waist was. It was hotttt and also filled me with joy like I was always supposed to be bigger. I was never meant to be skinny. I already knew this as I child when I stuffed my clothes with pillows haha.

Anyway some things that have been amazing these past months:

Seeing my rolls over my jeans as I sit down, I've outgrown two of my favorite jeans and the one I have now, the biggest I have is getting tighter and tighter. After that I only have elastic waistbands.

I've had a few times that I had to keep the older jeans unbuttoned because they'd gotten so uncomfortable.

My underwear is getting small and I can't pull it all the way over my butt anymore. I need to get a bigger size soon! Bras are the same actually, although I rarely wear those.

I can feel my stomach touching my thighs as I bend down in my sweatpants, this was such an odd sensation at first especially when my underbelly was cold. But I dream of feeling my belly on my thighs all the time.

The sensation of my belly jiggling is getting more and more noticeable. This is incredible. I think this summer is gonna be amazing wearing a skirt and no thighs whatsoever, just feeling my stomach jiggle as I stuff it with delicious food. Can't wait.

Saying this as I just had a pizza with extra cheese and garlic sauce and now eating my way through a tub of ice cream.

Sounds like you’re enjoying the gain 👍 Pizza, pasta and ice cream will surely do the trick to gain even more 😁

I feel the same way! Body euphoria is truly an amazing feeling

I can relate! As a kid I recognized that fat was taboo and shame about weight was the status quo; I got scolded for nonchalantly calling a woman fat and I saw many episodes of cartoons where a character had to quickly lose the weight they magically gained. I secretly stuffed my pajamas with as many pillows and blankets as I could fit in them at night, fantasizing about being fat.

As I got older I felt more and more shame around this part of myself. Sometimes I would accept that I wanted to be fatter and I would give in for a while, only to eventually get scared and ashamed once people started noticing, then I would lose it again.

It's taken a long time but I've never been more sure that I want this for myself. I'm fatter than I've ever been and I know I want to keep getting bigger. I still feel so small and sometimes I think about how much further along I could have been by now if only I had been sure of myself. But I'm just glad I'm on this path now, even if it took a while to be sure I was on the right one.