Fat experiences

For most of my teenage and adulthood I've felt incredibly misaligned with my body and lately I've experienced so much joy instead. I think partly linked to this fetish (it's turning me on) but also I just feel soooo much more like myself. I almost feel bad that I waited this long to let myself go.

I sat at my desk the other day without my sweater on and looked down and saw how swollen my waist was. It was hotttt and also filled me with joy like I was always supposed to be bigger. I was never meant to be skinny. I already knew this as I child when I stuffed my clothes with pillows haha.

Anyway some things that have been amazing these past months:

Seeing my rolls over my jeans as I sit down, I've outgrown two of my favorite jeans and the one I have now, the biggest I have is getting tighter and tighter. After that I only have elastic waistbands.

I've had a few times that I had to keep the older jeans unbuttoned because they'd gotten so uncomfortable.

My underwear is getting small and I can't pull it all the way over my butt anymore. I need to get a bigger size soon! Bras are the same actually, although I rarely wear those.

I can feel my stomach touching my thighs as I bend down in my sweatpants, this was such an odd sensation at first especially when my underbelly was cold. But I dream of feeling my belly on my thighs all the time.

The sensation of my belly jiggling is getting more and more noticeable. This is incredible. I think this summer is gonna be amazing wearing a skirt and no thighs whatsoever, just feeling my stomach jiggle as I stuff it with delicious food. Can't wait.

Saying this as I just had a pizza with extra cheese and garlic sauce and now eating my way through a tub of ice cream.

Sounds like you’re enjoying the gain 👍 Pizza, pasta and ice cream will surely do the trick to gain even more 😁

I feel the same way! Body euphoria is truly an amazing feeling

I can relate! As a kid I recognized that fat was taboo and shame about weight was the status quo; I got scolded for nonchalantly calling a woman fat and I saw many episodes of cartoons where a character had to quickly lose the weight they magically gained. I secretly stuffed my pajamas with as many pillows and blankets as I could fit in them at night, fantasizing about being fat.

As I got older I felt more and more shame around this part of myself. Sometimes I would accept that I wanted to be fatter and I would give in for a while, only to eventually get scared and ashamed once people started noticing, then I would lose it again.

It's taken a long time but I've never been more sure that I want this for myself. I'm fatter than I've ever been and I know I want to keep getting bigger. I still feel so small and sometimes I think about how much further along I could have been by now if only I had been sure of myself. But I'm just glad I'm on this path now, even if it took a while to be sure I was on the right one.

I completely relate to this thread! I don’t remember a time where I didn’t feel a certain way around fat & gaining. Same as with you guys, I stuffed my clothes with pillows as a kid, fascinated with & studying bigger bodies & in awe of the cartoon/willy wonka/matilda narratives around fat and gluttony

I let the shame get the better of me for too long. I didn’t realise how much it was negatively affecting me until recently where I’ve accepted this part of myself so much more. I love how it feels when I’ll make a sudden move that causes a ripple over my back rolls or a heavier bounce from a recent stuffing. Feeling the heaviness of my belly fighting against my thighs when standing up or particularly, walking up stairs - its impossible to ignore how aroused it makes me feel. It’s unsustainable to consistently shame yourself for feeling those things; several times a day, every day. Embracing them is a much healthier way to go mentally.

I’ve had to lose a bit of weight for health reasons (45lbs so far) but would probably have gained that rather than lost it if I’d had the chance! Especially with the headspace I’m in now and the support/encouragement I have around me. I am still fat, will always be fat - but the difference is this time I am going to enjoy wherever I am with my body in the best way possible, without shame & bringing myself down.

Well-said and all the encouragement in the world to ya 👍