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Really well put!

I would love there to be more research into it but I am convinced there has to be genetics and a cross over of nurture/nature dynamics.

I remember being around 4 years old, thinking an awful lot about what it would be like to be a truly massive person. I'd also imagine other people being massive.

Weight gain sequences on TV were profoundly hypnotising too.

As I got older, it acquired a sense of immediacy, like it wasn't just something I thought about, but something important to me.

For what it's worth, I feel like I've had these fascinations, kinks, fetishes, whatever you want to call it for as long as I can remember. It feels like it's been there since the beginning, or like I'm "hardwired" to be into this.

Early on, I didn't have the context or vocabulary to understand what was going on. What I knew was that I felt a good sort of funny or tingly, when I saw- or thought about very fat women. Especially if they were eating, gluttonous, getting bigger etc.

There were certainly pieces of media that I found particularly exciting, made me feel that funny way. But it was more like a puzzle piece snapping into place, rather than causing me to develop these interests/ kinks.

That is almost exactly my own story. Fascination with fat and fat women in early years and a growing wish to get fat myself, like a sumo wrestler. Then over the first years of puberty it got sexualised and in the youth years it slowly transformed after some successful weight gains... And losses afterwards, into mostly being a feeder. My wife, not being a "natural feedee" , has developed into, not exactly a feedee, but not NOT a feedee either. She has more than doubled in size since we met and she is proud and happy.

I mean in the 6th grade I wrote a story where Medusa got her snakes to hypnotize people into bringing her food, and she got fatter and fatter, lol.

I also remember as a kid watching family members (adults) talk sadly/upset in regards to dieting and how hard it is and I remember thinking 'why bother, just be happy'

Also can echo fascination with bigger bellies, wanting hugs from fat folks, and eating lots of junk food until my belly hurt

How VERY interesting! Exactly in 6th grade I wrote two stories, not about what you did, but definitely feederism related: one about two of my classmates getting stuck on a remote island where they were caught by cannonbals and fattened up and one about two children ending up in a future where it was illegal to be slim so they were fattened up when they were discovered.

I remember stuffing my clothes with my pillow and stuffed animals to appear fat in Pre-school. I am not sure if I was aspring to look like adults in my life that had big bellies or not.

I also remember watching media with stuffing and getting fat; old cartoons (early cartoons, I forget which ones), Violet inflation, rapid belly expansion horror movies, and anything from 80s/90s).

I started gaining in 3rd grade, probably because the town store was in walking distance from my house. I used to get a few little Debbie treats, chips, soda, etc. daily. My family rarely had dessert after meals, so of course I indulged any chance that I could.

I had pretty similar experiences to others:
Violet Beauregard’s infamous scene.
Various other cartoon characters getting fat.

I think for me one of the tip offs was the old “before & after” pics in old magazines, especially when the weight lost was actually very substantial.

I think one of the reasons I’m so secretive about my preferences is my mom. Sometimes when she sees a fat person she will mention how sad she is to see it. She’s never really malicious about it, in fact she is very empathetic & I understand how unhealthy being fat is, but I guess it has left me feeling abnormal.