Honestly it's an interesting thought to persue.
What is our destiny? What do I want?
Honestly it is a question only your honest self can answer.
If you dont mind though I could share my version of that.
I was always into fat. Especially bellies.
But also I not always accepted my own body.
I was always plump. My family cooks too well to be otherwise, no matter how much they tell me I should watch my weight.
Was bullied to, so I never learned to see myself of worth. So I tried to lose weight, but ultimately that hole in my stomach was maddening.
As unhealthy as it is, I taught myself to mostly be hungry once a day. As a compromise to trying to lose weight. With that I limit my calory input, whilst eating whaterver and how much I can handle.
It works for workdays, but on weekends I just like to truly indulge. I didnt do so until 2 years ago though.
Through years of building up confidence I got enough to see my body and treasure its weight. I want to grow to a size of around 180 to 200kg and I'm happy how it's going
I make my own destiny as I wish to be
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