Honestly when I gained to my biggest I hadn’t realised as I wore comfy clothes working from home. I knew I’d gained a bit and avoided mirrors and cameras (I wasn’t active in this scene then and still repressing it)
I remember catching myself walking into the room with tighter undergarments on and couldn’t believe it. I did just stop for a moment and take everything in. I truly waddled like a fat person, I was leaning back slightly to accommodate my stomach. And my arms jutted out to the side. I was truly in shock.
Those moments are mad! It wasn’t long after I came back here and found my people again 😝
5 days