BigFox:
Good to read that you made it home. I stuggle every day with the urge But I have to remind my self that I don't want to miss out on life. I'm getting married my self in a few weeks And I have more then my self to think about now. I never got near the size you got. My body told me no in other ways. But like you I fully support someones desision to. "Go all in." Keep fighting the good fight. because life is worth it.
Congratulations on your upcoming wedding! I wish you all the best life has to offer, as well as the health to enjoy it