Gaining

Damn, didn't notice before?

I knew I was getting fat when I went to put on some pants for a work function and they would NOT button. Not for the life of me. I had to do some serious shopping.

It was an INSANE turn on.

When I got stretch marks all over the bottom of my stomach and a permanent fat roll although that was after years of gaining. I’m up 110 lbs and probably got the stretch marks around the 80-90 lb mark but I was stuffing a lot more to be fair….

Honestly, I think I really knew I was getting fat when my shirts started feeling smaller and my belly began covering my legs. And that heavy feeling throughout the day just wouldn’t go away. Also even standing up, my stomach sticks out so much that I bump into things because I don’t calculate my real size right anymore. Damn, I’ve gotten so fat haha.

There were lots of indicators that I was growing bigger:

* clothes getting tighter
* needing to buy plus sizes
* struggling to lace up shoes
* feeling my body jiggle when I walked faster than a lazy stroll
* getting out of breath when I climbed stairs
* feeling my growing belly rest on my thighs when I sat

All of those should have been indicators that I was well past chubby and officially a fatty, but for me, the big realisation wasn't until I finally noticed I couldn't sit at my desk and easily reach my keyboard and mouse without the edge of my desk digging firmly into my belly.

When I was eight years old. I started third grade heavier than usual. During the summer, my appetite was increasing; it was like I was either snacking or eating a lot. I knew that I was getting fat because I was outgrowing my clothes. I was getting a noticeable belly; with fat arms and thighs. I was heavier than my old sister; who was always slender.

My mother tried putting me on several diets in order for me to lose weight. She had to find specialty stores for chubby girls like me. When I walked, my belly would be jiggling.

I knew I was chubby in early elementary school, because my mother was constantly obsessing over how much I ate. When fourth grade started, I was too fat for a regular desk and had to sit at the arts and crafts table instead. My PE teacher had to modify activities so I could participate. There was some teasing from classmates, which didn't last long once they realized I enjoyed it and was proud of being the fattest kid in school. Other students would give me the leftovers from their lunches to see how much I would eat, leading my teacher to put a stop to food-sharing, citing food allergies as the reason. I remember taking great pride once when a little boy said, "She's about to pop!" as I was stuffing my face with "donated" snacks.

I still have a hard time realizing how big I am and how much space I take up. Here are some Highlights.

- At the gym I was unable to fit into the tricep pushdown machine, my sides would push into the pathway for the arms.
- Tying my shoe laces has become quite the shore. My stomach has gotten in the way that I need to hold my breath OR open my pants to allow it more room
- My belly starting to slip out of panties and undershirts as well as my breasts being squished uncomfortably against old bras
- My car's seatbelt is reaching it's max length
- Seats in general have become a chore. Armrests dig into my thighs / sides
- Again at the gym, not fitting into the Hip thrust machine because of my girth.
- Two incidents at the Fair: 1) one year I wanted to ride a wild carousel but the security bar pushed so hard into my stomach that I almost threw up at the end of the ride
2) Most of the rides I wanted to go in I didn't fit, ass too big for the seats, bar didn't close, money got refunded
- I had to climb a ladder at work, the tag said "Max weight 150kg" I am 156-ish and got kind of worried at the thought of an accident. The Same goes for my Bicycle which actually really sad about
- I keep knocking thighs over with my size OR bumping into people. Recently my breasts brushed against someone while passing and that was pretty amazing : )
- I popped exactly one pair of gym pants doing squats. I was very embarrassed in the moment but it was pretty hot.