So when I first came out on the BBW scene, I got accustomed to shipping nudes...Or near nudes. It was all "hi...how are you?" then, "what are you wearing?"
Only after awhile and looking back on all that happened in my life... I wanted to connect with someone, and the only way I could get some attention, to fill this void of who I thought I was...Yea. I had an internet identity crisis. I thought that was normal for girls like me, that there were only a few men who might be interested in my body type.
I know some girls do the nudes asap because they are sending you a message- you are nothing to them, as they make themselves nothing to you. This way they can walk away from you, while getting what they want. You can not sexually objectify a women if she does it first. I did this too.
Then I kinda woke up... What if I don't let anyone, including myself objectify me sexually?
When someone does this, and then tried to back track by saying you make them uncomfortable...they feel guilt because they know you will not play by their rules.
It is a total mind funk though when you get someone online who sends the nudes- and you just say thanks.
15 years
