Why not talk to him about liking being fat? I'm sure that during conversation you'll find a decent opening.
As for actually gaining, that is a much more complicated issue. Control and some degree of moderation are generally good things--and no matter how turned on you are you still have to live the rest of your life. Obviously lots of people on this site are fat and like being fat, and that is cool....I'm just saying that anyone here saying "go for it" shouldn't be an excuse to throw caution to the wind, you know?
Good luck with sorting out all your feelings on this....liking fat is not the easiest thing to live with (I'm there, and by the sounds of it I don't have it as bad as you do)
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