Gaining

I dont know what to do

Hmm, the desire to gain weight is rarely a passing thing. At least from what I've seen, most people who discover that the idea of getting fat turns them on don't "grow out of it".

But, you don't necessarily have to act on it. It's ok to keep gaining in the realm of fantasy. Just, don't expect the urges to go away as they probably won't.

Quick question, are you and your girlfriend already in a feeding relationship? If you are she may be more receptive to the idea of you gaining than you might expect.
10 years