Gaining

We all become more like our parents as we grow up, no matter what weight.

Could it be that in the back of your mind, ending up looking like your mother was the WORST thing that could happen to you? The fact that it is happening and the fact that you're doing it to yourself may be a big part of the turn on!

I get what you are saying.

By gaining the weight you are throwing away the conventionally hot body that is seen as the pinnacle. Lets be honest, most women would kill to look the way you looked in your old posts. To give that all up would seem completely bonkers to a large majority of the population.

Plus, you will also be seen as less attractive by some men and as much as we say we don't care - we all want to be wanted.

But I do like that you are going after your own physical ideal. That takes courage. And while it may seem odd to some does seem to be what you want so I respect the fact that you are embracing it.

I think you look good in either picture and you are simply blessed in the looks department.