transkitten:
I have a Eating Disorder (Bulimia), but I'm really into stuffing/ force feeding..? It's like..i hate my body except for when I or someone else stuffs me..Is that maybe my brains way of trying to make me recover? Is it bad? Should I just..let myself give into my kink? Thoughts?
I doubt that this is your brain's way of making you recover. It's just that this fascination with fat and stuffing turns you on, and that may or may not be related to bulimia.
Is it bad? No, don't think for a moment that it is. There is far too much shaming in our society -- and far too little pleasure.
If this makes you feel good, give in to it. And really, this may help you develop a better self-concept and learn to love your body.
One final thought: Since you are here on this site, I rather suspect you would have a hard time fighting your desires anyway. You might as well find some joy in them.
I hope you can find someone to stuff you -- someone who will also show appreciation for your body.
Best to you.
