The AD36 thing is really interesting; how had I not heard of that before?
But to respond to the original topic: I haven't chosen to take my life that way, but this sort of thing has always been in my fantasies, and probably always will.
I've put little value on either of masculinity or thinness since I can remember. But I also don't like to draw a lot of attention or make a fuss, so I have always sort of hung in on the mildly fat and not very macho side of things, finding a point where I can live with myself while still fitting in and not upsetting people close to me. The thought of somebody recognizing my real inclinations and forcing me to follow them, though .... Unf!
Although forcing is a funny word here, because it would probably be like "I'm going to make you so fat and femme, whether you want it or n..." Me jumping in "OK! Do we start now? Are you into funnel feeding or more about the constant snacking? I can go out and buy gear either way, on the way we can talk about how fast you want me to gain. Were you planning hormones or just the androgyny of fatness? If you are thinking about changing what I wear, we should talk about my colour palette before you go shopping, and I already have a pretty good idea of the sizes I'd need ..."
5 years