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Okay so I am a gay male who happens to be 18. I get extremely turned on when a guy is chubby and has a nice belly. This arousal gets stronger if it involves the guy getting fatter. I also get turned on by guys who have a really nice butt so the feeder fetish does not need to be involved in order for me to be sexually attracted to people.

My concern is that I do not feel anything when I attempt to masturbate. Like I can feel turned on by other guys but, do not touch myself because it does not do anything for me. When people talk about having pleasure from touching themselves, I have no idea what that feels like. The only sexual pleasure I do feel is when I see a guy who is extremely sexually attractive. I also do not get aroused when Imagine having sex with another person. When I am aroused by another guy, I get the urge to be physical with him but, the act of sex just feels taboo to me. Its like my body wants to have sex but, can't grasp with the concept if that makes sense. This is why Watching porn has never gotten me aroused and does nothing for me.

So I am just worried if that when I do finally have sex for the first time (I'm a virgin) is that I won't know what to do and how to make my body feel good, and if I can even feel that stimulation/pleasure everyone talks about. I know I am not asexual because I find guys sexually attractive but, I just do not feel pleasure from watching porn, masturbating, or picture having sex with someone else.

They don’t sexually turned on by people and have the urge to be intimate beyond sensually

So do you think I just don’t enjoy masturbation and will enjoy sex when I have it for the first time? I just need the experience?

Look up the definition of asexuality lol