I've had a feederism fetish ever since I hit puberty. At first I identified as a feeder, but to my disappointment, it has been extremely difficult to find a woman who is willing to get fat on purpose, so about four years ago I finally decided to take the plunge, become a feedee, and gain weight myself to satisfy my fetish.
I was a skinny 150 pounds ( at 6'0" ) when I started gaining, and one thing I've noticed is that every time I reach my "goal" weight, I end up wanting to increase it even further. For example:
- I originally wanted to gain to 180 (to be on the verge of being clinically overweight).
- Then I decided to gain to 200 (to be solidly into clinically overweight territory, as well as to have gained an even 50 pounds).
- Still unsatisfied, I decided to aim for 220 (an even 100 kg, plus right on the cusp of clinical obesity).
- I wanted even more, so I pushed it to 250 (to be well into obesity, in addition to having officially gained 100 pounds).
- I thought I would stop there, but I was having too much fun stuffing myself, so I allowed myself to increase it to 260 (representing class II obesity and, to my pleasant surprise, a 50-inch belly for the first time ever).
I'm 259 as of this past Sunday, and while I haven't weighed myself since then, I've been chugging heavy cream all week and will undoubtedly reach my new "goal" weight soon. And unsurprisingly, I'm now having thoughts of going all the way up to 300 (class III obesity, not to mention doubling my starting weight). The problem is that I'm scared of the negative health consequences. Since gaining over 100 pounds, I've developed significant acid reflux, I've started snoring a lot, I sweat so profusely that it's genuinely embarrassing, and I think my blood pressure is high. Yet despite all of this, that nagging urge to fatten myself up 40 more pounds to satisfy my intense sexual desires simply will not go away. It's like an addiction.
You can see from my pictures that I've clearly developed a big, round, soft belly like I always wanted. I'm even starting to get covered in stretch marks, which I actually wanted to avoid. So my question is: how do I feel satisfied with the fat gut I already have instead of constantly feeling like it's never enough and wanting more?
I was a skinny 150 pounds ( at 6'0" ) when I started gaining, and one thing I've noticed is that every time I reach my "goal" weight, I end up wanting to increase it even further. For example:
- I originally wanted to gain to 180 (to be on the verge of being clinically overweight).
- Then I decided to gain to 200 (to be solidly into clinically overweight territory, as well as to have gained an even 50 pounds).
- Still unsatisfied, I decided to aim for 220 (an even 100 kg, plus right on the cusp of clinical obesity).
- I wanted even more, so I pushed it to 250 (to be well into obesity, in addition to having officially gained 100 pounds).
- I thought I would stop there, but I was having too much fun stuffing myself, so I allowed myself to increase it to 260 (representing class II obesity and, to my pleasant surprise, a 50-inch belly for the first time ever).
I'm 259 as of this past Sunday, and while I haven't weighed myself since then, I've been chugging heavy cream all week and will undoubtedly reach my new "goal" weight soon. And unsurprisingly, I'm now having thoughts of going all the way up to 300 (class III obesity, not to mention doubling my starting weight). The problem is that I'm scared of the negative health consequences. Since gaining over 100 pounds, I've developed significant acid reflux, I've started snoring a lot, I sweat so profusely that it's genuinely embarrassing, and I think my blood pressure is high. Yet despite all of this, that nagging urge to fatten myself up 40 more pounds to satisfy my intense sexual desires simply will not go away. It's like an addiction.
You can see from my pictures that I've clearly developed a big, round, soft belly like I always wanted. I'm even starting to get covered in stretch marks, which I actually wanted to avoid. So my question is: how do I feel satisfied with the fat gut I already have instead of constantly feeling like it's never enough and wanting more?
5 years