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How did you find a balnce with feedism?

Hello so I am starting to think that I seriously want to be in a relationship that involves Feederism. I fall into the feeder category and whenever I see a guy I�m attracted to instantly feel aroused. Like just the thought of them and how they are fat just turns me on. It�s like I don�t even think about the person themselves and it makes me feel terrible sometimes. I fear that I would just be incapable to be in a relationship with this fetish in my life because I will be too obsessed with wanting them to gain weight. Like the thought of whom I was with would instantly arouse me and would I even think of them as a person and not care about the romantic side of the relationship. I also fear that when they start gaining, I will just be constantly aroused by them. Like when I think about them I am scared that all I will think about is them getting fat?

I would really love some advice on this? Am I overthinking or underestimating myself. I am also a virgin and have never been any relationship btw! Did anyone have this same fear but later is in a relationship where they strike a balance. If your significant other wanted to lose weight would that be okay with you?
4 years