My biggest fantasy is to reach a point in my gain where not only am I unable to lose weight no matter how genuinely hard I try, but I can’t even stop myself from piling on more and more pounds. A point where no amount of effort put into diet and exercise could stop my gain or even meaningfully slow it down, and I’m destined to become morbidly obese no matter what I do to try to stop it. I put “uncontrollable” in quote marks only because in this situation, I would have done it to myself on purpose at first. The idea is that after that initial push, it would leave my control entirely (except for that I could speed up the gain by intentionally leaning into it). I have thought about this for years and am sure I’d like to go through with it.
Here’s the problem: even though I’ve finally reached a point where I don’t lose weight when not paying attention to my diet, I still have to put in significant effort in order to gain more. Additionally, I think that if I tried, I could lose it all without even putting in very much effort.
For those of you who have reached a point where you feel like you can’t stop yourselves, how did you do it? If you haven’t reached that point, but have ideas as to how it would be possible, I’d love to hear those, too.
Here’s the problem: even though I’ve finally reached a point where I don’t lose weight when not paying attention to my diet, I still have to put in significant effort in order to gain more. Additionally, I think that if I tried, I could lose it all without even putting in very much effort.
For those of you who have reached a point where you feel like you can’t stop yourselves, how did you do it? If you haven’t reached that point, but have ideas as to how it would be possible, I’d love to hear those, too.
4 years