If you are worried about what others will say it sounds like you have a fantasy about gaining.
If wanting to be fat were a reality you would find a way to do it no matter what or what others thought.
Recognizing reality and fantasy are two different things is a start.
I started gaining to get back at a an abusive husband.
one time and the second time I wanted so bad to get fat that I did it and what others thought didn't matter.
Sure friends said things about my weight and my Mother still complains I am too fat.
If wanting to be fat were a reality you would find a way to do it no matter what or what others thought.
Recognizing reality and fantasy are two different things is a start.
I started gaining to get back at a an abusive husband.
one time and the second time I wanted so bad to get fat that I did it and what others thought didn't matter.
Sure friends said things about my weight and my Mother still complains I am too fat.
3 years