gettin2fat:
When I was 18, I was 260lbs, my heaviest weight at the time. I was told by my doctor that I needed to lose 100 pounds. So I lost 35, I started feeling more energetic, but I didn’t feel like myself. By 19 I was 225, I was sad and chubby. I had also gotten my license at about that time, so I started bingeing. I started filling my face with every fast food place I could drive to. My days from 9-5 while others were working consisted of me driving to two different McDonald’s, a Harvey’s and a Burger King. I would eat breakfast lunch and first dinner, while my parents thought I was working. I gained a lot quickly, 60lbs to be exact. In one year it’s really noticeable. Especially because of how big my belly has gotten. Now at 20 I’m 8 pounds away from 300lbs contemplating life.
Im so out of shape, I jiggle with every move, floors creak when I walk over them, I’m out of breath after putting on pants, I’m really wide, my stomach is full of lard and hangs.
I’ve told myself from the beginning if I ever let myself get to 300lbs I’d just give up on ever losing again and just let the fat fetish world become my life and just die a really big fatty who overate due to gluttony. But if I didn’t get to 300lbs I still had a chance to lose and be healthy and fit.
So I’m hesitant to get to 300lbs. Im still only 20, and if I let myself go more now I’ll surely be 600lbs by 23.
it might be worth asking yourself this: do you really enjoy being fat and enjoy overeating because it makes you fatter? or do you not like being fat that much but binge for other reasons and are just resigning yourself to being fat?
yes, society as a whole still has a ways to go when it comes to accepting fat people, but no matter what size you are there will always be people that love and appreciate you for you. so if deep down you love being fat and love the idea of getting even fatter then go for it. enjoy yourself and embrace what makes you happy. but if you aren't feeling that happy about being fat it might be worth taking a little time to ask yourself why.
maybe try writing yourself a pros and cons list? and if you're feeling like you're mentally and/or emotionally not 100% it's important to look after that first. i hope whatever you decide it's for the best.
