Pummpumm:
Though being slim throughout most of my life I always had the desire to gain weight one day. It took until now to finally let go a bit... The problem is: I get reaaally uncomfortable when being around family. Though really wanting to gain weight and being aroused quite a bit by those thoughts, I am really anxious that my family will notice the gain.... My mother did and literally poked my belly recently and I really didn't like it.... How did you manage to get more comfortable with visibly gaining weight?
I totally understand. It was the same for me. In my case, I wound up accepting a job offer that placed me hundreds of miles away from my nearest family members. I had to start from scratch, since I did not know anyone in the area. This gave me the opportunity to gain weight without concern about what my family would think.
When my family members finally saw me again, I had already gained quite a bit of weight. At one point, my sister mentioned something about my weight, but it sounded like she was just curious.
As an added bonus, my workplace has very high turnover. We're constantly losing people and hiring new ones. As a result, I have a bunch of co-workers who have only ever known me as a fat person.
Relocating for this job was one of the main reasons I felt comfortable finally giving in and intentionally getting fat.