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My kinks have evolved a lot since first got into this, but I think it all started when I was a skinny little girl who hated her body. Like, I knew I was pretty, but I wanted nothing more to be a full figured woman like my family members.

And now I'm a feeder that works out, lol. Funny how that goes.

Last year or so I had reached 300 pounds and I was a bit shocked and felt like I needed to lose weight I tried for a few weeks but I eventually just fell back into my ways, then one day I was on the internet looking up diets bc I knew I’d have to actually diet instead of treat my body like I did when I’d cut from 140 to 130, eventually I found myself im body positivity and fat acceptance blogs and YouTube pages articles and this stuff just clicked for me i had felt like this for while but that big 3 number startled me. Through the searching of that eventually I found feedism and the rest is history now I’m 400+ pounds and wouldn’t change a thing!

I think it has always been there with me. I used to tell everyone when I was younger that I wanted to get married have kids and get fat. I didn't see it as a kink per say then though. It was just what happened with my older sister and she was really happy, so I wanted that. I think I realized it was something more to me when I got pregnant with my daughter and gained a lot of weight. I had to quit smoking, so I used food to clam the cravings. I gained probably 60 pounds in those 9 months. My husband gain at least 20 too. It was just an amazing experience to me. Total surprise. Anyways, this is my first post here. I actually joined so I could reply to this. Kind of lurked on here for a while. Something freeing about openly admitting things that are taboo in everyday life in a public place...

Welcome!

Thank you guy!

Welcome to the site :-) Your bio is parallel to a lot of others on here, mine included!

This used to be me. Constantly obsessed with diet, practically torturing myself through deprivation of avoiding junk food.

Figured enough was enough. You can be healthy at any size is my new motto. And I'm certainly far more mentally healthy as a fat guy than I was when I was avoiding the things I love, in this case junk and fast food.

Growing up I was always a chubby kid so naturally EVERY always told me to loose weight. And I was on a lot of diets growing up. But I never had a problem being fat. It did not bother me. Eventually soon after high school I said fuck ity I'm tiered of being hungry I I love my fat so I just started eating. Everything. And after a while I goggles people who want to be fatter. As it turns out there is this whole community! I found out about heavy cream! And lots about this life style. And it's just been lb after jiggy lb after that.

**eating a cake in a dark room with red lighting**
As far back as I could remember I’ve always wanted to be a fat ass *rags to riches starts playing

I got into it on purpose in an attempt to deal with my selective eating disorder because medical interventions were not working since I still didn’t feel motivated enough to push past the disgust and nausea to eat more than a couple bites of anything at a time, even though I was actively starving to death, and I was desperate to find something that would work since I’d been threatened with institutionalization. I wasn’t that into it at first but you can get into anything if you try hard enough. It’s an unorthodox approach, but it did work. The eating disorder isn’t GONE but I was able to get to a healthy enough weight that even when I have a relapse and can’t stand food for a while it isn’t too dangerous and my doctor no longer threatens to institutionalize me since I’m no longer at risk of dying.